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Im Not Okay

Its author Bon Bon here, Today I just wanna talk about something I really wanted to point out some things.

I feel so fucking stupid.

I have trusted people who I thought I could, But I always end up getting hurt.

I hate myself; I hate my body.

I have been dodging meals; I would only eat one meal in the whole day. I hate my thighs, my face. I want to rip myself apart because Im so ugly, Im so Imperfect. I see compliments as lies that... I cant even see through.

I dont feel okay.

I cant wake up in a day feeling okay, I feel so worthless. I feel like a horrible person. I want to become normal.

I barely eat now-adays.

I would only eat lunch or dinner. I try to compare my body with these beautiful people in magazines but I cant help but feel so Imperfect. I would starve myself, eat... then puke it all out after everything.
I dont want to tell anyone because I dont want them to get hurt instead of me, I dont want to drag them into my own problems.

Im not okay.

I always try to stay strong but all I can see in myself.. Is nothing.

I feel so fucking e̶m̶p̶t̶y̶

I feel like I'm loosing all people I love, And I dont want to loose you guys to.

Especially you JerinJThein

Please, Dont leave me you guys.

I love you all..

Please dont hurt your selves or starve yourselves, I care for all of you.

Sincerely, Your Author Bon Bon 💔