Never Yours : Allah Knows Best

part 2

it's been three days since my marriage , okba is never home he comes late at night and gets to work early in the morning i thought it was better i didn't want to see anyone or hear any insults i wish my brother karim was here he was supposed to comeback from his trip soon , he is the only one who can help me out .

i've tried to reach him for the past two weeks but i couldn't , my father took my phone and my aunt tried her best but no answer he had been always like this .

dissapearing for weeks then coming back , i've always felt jealous i wanted to escape the house too , leaving my stepmother and father behind but i couldn't because where would i go, for women it's not the same .

it was 6am in the morning i heard some noise it must be okba

i can't avoid him forever so i decided to prepare breakfast for him , i don't know what he eat for breakfast and there was only eggs on the fridge

i sensed a presence behind me , turned around to see okba with only a towel around his waist

i lowered my gaze and my cheeks were burning " g....good morning " .

" morning " he said after what sounded like an eternity in a very dry tone and grapped a glass of water

_"i wanted to make breakfast for you but there is only eggs on the fridge ".

he didn't say anything for a while then ....." you don't need to i always have my breakfast outside " he said without looking my way and got out of the kitchen , this guy is so slow or he just hates me .

i went back to my room and started writing on my journal , i didn't write on it since the accident it was my only way of expressing how i feel

i don't know how much time i spent writing until i heard the door opening it must be okba did he forget something ?

he went to the kitchen then got out again so quick

i went to see and found some grocery bags on the table , oh it was because i told him that the fridge was empty

even though he doesn't eat at home he thought of me , that made me somehow revealed he is not a monster after all , but i had no appetite all i wanted to do is to sleep but i can't do that too

my head is full of thoughts and i was depressed

it was 4 pm i finished my prayers and wanted to read some quran perhaps i will feel better because i felt like dying i opened al mes7af ( quran ) and the first things i saw is " indeed allah is with the patient " from surat al anfal

i coudln't stop my tears because i felt that it was talking to me , i should be patient everything will be alright i kept reading and crying at the same time feeling every word

i felt hands on my back " are you alright ? " it was okba's voice

i opened my eyes and when i saw his face i quickly got up , i must have slept on the floor while reading

_" i am okay i don't know how i eneded up sleeping here " . the worried look on his face quickly vanished and he gave me the usual disgusted look before he went to his chamber

it was 7pm and he never came home this early , he must have finished work early today

since i am not alone today i have to make dinner , i made soup and baked some bread and prepared some salad

after putting everything on the table and orgnizing them i went call him out

he was watching tv on the salon when i told him he gave me a confused look then raised and eyebrow before slowly putting the remote aside and getting up