i kinda want a therapist??? like i was offered one by some eating disorder case manager thingy lady that i had to go talk to but like. i declines cause i know my mom would get mad if i said yes and my mom was being hella rude saying that the psychiatrics department in the doctor place that i go to is for crazy people smh. i got mad at her but she's not going to change her thinking so :(
but yeah i have to see the lady again this upcoming wednesday and i'm so nervous because i want to ask if i can still talk to a therapist but i also don't want anyone stopping me from losing anymore weight. like . i already have myself fucking up my weight loss so i don't need more people fucking it up ya know?
so i'm just idek anymore. but im not doing mentally fine and i just realized it. i don't know what to do.
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also here's my eye after crying in the shower since it looks kinda pretty
