Only You Can Give Me That Feeling (Zen X Reader)

Trauma

707: ✴Mc, where are you!?✴

Mc: I'm at Zen's place...

I was sat in Zen's living room on his sofa curled up at one side, Zen was in the kitchen and must have noticed me on my phone as he joined the chat. Zen starts to talk about it all and I start to feel my eyes well up with water, I drop my hands into my lap looking down, my hair concealing my face from the outside world, I look towards the chat to see Zen's mad messages.

Mc: Zen... calm down, I'm safe.

He appologies but then calmly explains how 'messed up' the RFA really is, Zen starts to decribe the man and I couldn't read it, my memories were filled with that man, my head in my knees, I watch as they both say goodbye and my phone turn off. I stare at the phone and hear Zen's footsteps walk closer to me I place my cheeck on my knees to hide my face

"...Do you want me to go get you something?" I shake my head and watch as Zen walks to catch my eyes "I'm sure you're still nervous being on your own" he stands in my eyes and goes to walk away when I grab his wrist, I look down away from his sight "God... I'm sorry" I feel his arm tense up and look up towards him "I should have gone there faster...!" He sits on the sofa infront of me and grabs my wrist with his other hand "I won't go anywhere now..." He looks down to catch my eyes once again "I'll protect you Mc..." I keep my head looking down but watch as he searches for my eyes "Just as you stood beside me when I was going through a rough time... I'll be right here with you." Our eyes meet "From now on" his arms start to move "I will never let you go." he grabs my hands and I place my chin on my knees, we stare at each other for what seems like hours

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Zen had given me a bowl of everything sweet he could find to give me, I stared at it for a while not saying anything but thinking He's done this just for me, I placed a strawberry in my to eat it and Zen walks in as I'm debating to get rid of it. "Mc, I'm so glad you're eating something" I looked at the others bowls and plates of food offered to me and let out a sigh. I bit into another strawberry and Zen sat down "Just forget about what happened earlier, okay?" I look up at meet his gaze, his eyes were filled with worry and I looked at the cherry I was going to eat. My hands were shaking and I answered "I'm still a bit shaky" I dropped the cherry in the bowl and put the bowl on the table. "Of course... I feel so bad." I look up at his face and furrow my eyebrows "Please trust me... I'll protect you so that nothing like that ever happens again." he looks around the room and I start to do so too "If it's okay with you, you can continue livng here." I notice his old scripts in a pile at the corner of the room

"Zen, what about your acting?" He lets out a sigh and I look towards him with his eyes closed "I'll take care of that on my own." he grabs my hand "Your safety is more important right now." I look at his hand and entwined our fingers, bringing it up to my face as if it were a pillow "I'm nervous that I'll lose you." His face has a red tint on his cheecks as he watches me "Don't go anywhere alone for the time being." I stare at his other hand as I become to nervous look him in the eye "My ego or belief don't matter in protecting someone." I snuggle into his hand more

"Thank you..." His eyes widen at my action and he gives me a smile "Please know that my biggest fear is you disappearing from my side" his eyes meet mine and I feel my face become red, my lips parting slightly "The feelings I have for you... are so special and important" Zen's arms reach for me and pull me into a warm embrace "I love you" He sighs "I love you, and only you" I feel my heart melt at his words I place my hands on his chest and grab his top "I don't care about our situation. What's important is my heart that's pounding right now," I felt his heart beat in his chest and felt mine speeding up as if to match it. "I know that my feelings are true" I pull my head to face his and his eye's sparkle and I give him a quick smile "You are..." He pauses "More beautiful than anyone in the world" I look away to which he grabs my chin and makes me look at him "Please don't turn your eyes away and accept my heart."

"I... Zen..." He chuckles at my attempt to make words and his hand falls through my hair and it tilts my head up to meet his lips, They were warm and welcoming and I let myself be controlled from the kiss closing my eyes. He pulls away "We can talk about this later..." He return to the kiss I let my arm fall down his top feeling his abs quietly "Just be honest with me, tell me that you share my feelings too" I nod my head "For now... this is enough" I lean into him trying to show how much I love him when he pulls away from the kiss again "I'm just so grateful that I can be with you like this." He places another kiss on my mouth. I lean closer into it and Zen's grip of my head tightens as he leans back, he pulls away and I long for more but no what the look on his face means so I don't.

---Bonus (Just for the next part)---

I feel my eyes grow tired and I struggle to keep them open, I notice that I was still in my clothes and turn to Zen who was quietly yawning, "Zen?" I question as I start to rub my eyes "Um, what should I wear to bed?" Zen's eyes widen and he quickly stood up.

"I forgot about the whole sleeping thing..." He walks to his room and passess me his t-shirt, "I can sleep on the sofa tonight" I shake my head and hold onto his two fingers. He lets out another yawn "Theese sofa's are to hard, you'll hurt yourself" His face turns red and relisation appears on his face "So I can sleep with you?" He voice sounded shakey and I nodded my head, I stood up and let out a yawn "Oh, just while I remember Seven sent you an email" Zen nodded his head

"I'll read it while you get changed..." I nod my head and walk into his room, I shut the door and slowly fall to the floor, sliding my back down the door. I quickly change into his top and hear a nock on the door "You can come in~" I chirp before Zen pokes his head round the door. He looks me up and down and slowly steps in, we both stand awkwardly looking at the bed. We've been here for a while, maybe I should I start to flicker my eyes, Zen notices and quickly runs to myside and grabs me "Two in one day?" He questions

"No medicine" I mutter as I close my eyes. Still being awake I feel Zen carefully place me into bed before getting in on the otherside, I roll over and notice him watching my face. I snuggle into the pillow, my body remains cold as I roll over to try to get warm. "Mc?" Zen whispers as I turn over "Your shaking..." He states I look at my hand and notice I was trembling from the cold, I look towards him and smile alittle before moving closely into him "Shh, I'm still asleep" I tease as I place myself in Zens warm arms. "Mc, what the?" Zen whispers once again, I giggle and he just sighs and hugs me back, his hand trails down my back and stops on my wait. I quickly fall asleep in his warmth.