My First Love

let the time come

Ming pov

the news about pkit married just confirmed by himself .. that there reason why i ask wayo do a discussion at his house .. to meet kit by myself to ask the same big question.. did he fucking serious had a wife and child soon. it not possible but i didn't know what the feeling i had after see kit with someone else.. i admit that i miss him for 3 years and i always ask about pkit through wayo and auntie marla but i think it will just worried feeling after all he missing and study at oversea not tell me at all.

"ming... did you think this design will be okay?" wayo ask

"ming.. i ask you.."

"ming... what the hell you think.. we need to finish this ..so can you focus ?" wayo shout again .

back to the earth.

"yeah.. sure... let look this design.. the function is okay but...... i think we need to do something make it a simple .."

final project for civil engineering is not easy after all paper work were rejected by prof. lam make me dizzy and almost fed up but lucky this project i group with wayo and phana .. it difficult at the first stage .

"okay.. i think this will enough.. did you all want to add something else???" phana.

"no..i think it will okay.. this project make me tired.. it just fucking electric cable.."

"it unique right.. at least it work.." wayo

'"im hungry..."

"yeah me toooo..."

"let go find food .. i think mom must prepare us something before dinner.. stay here okay for dinner i will tell mom.."

"free food ,... i must want it beside im tired to back to my dorm"

three of us get down for the kitchen and see auntie marla just prepare something at dining table.

"it fruits and some snacks ... thank you mom... i love you.."

"yeah eat it.. i will start cook for dinner.. you all eat here okay.."

"sure auntie.."

"where is pkit mom????"

"at garden.. having a call from beam he say.."

"owhh...."

slowly i walk from phana and wayo without they notice and have my way to the garden where is pkit there..

"yeah.. sure.. i miss you too.. can't wait to see again.. set the date i will come.."

silence

"bye..."

"pkit....." i call .

kit just shock hear my voice and turn his body face to me..

"owwhh.. nong ming.. are you  finish final work?"

"yes .. pkit... long time you not call me nong... if you call it as i remember it last start my 17 years old... "

"owh.. right.. "

i can see pkit face being nervous and not comfortable with me

"ming.. i go first.."

"pkit... why?"

"why? about what ming"

"why did go oversea without tell me first.. as i know we are close and we did not  had any fight time at the time you want to go... you delete all your social media, you change your number .. force wayo not give it to me .. you didn't reply my email at all.. did i do something wrong to you pkit... did i ?"

i can see pkit face shock at my suddenly question.. i must vomit it all because im really tired to think any possibility that pkit go oversea because of me..he hate me..

pkit just see his foot without say anything make me feel upset because i need a explanation but not a silence one

"did i do something that make you hate me p? "

i cant hold my feeling anymore...

"it nothing to do with you ming.. i decide to continue my study.. it all"

"but you ,.." 

"it nothing to argue ming.. i back .. i talk with you now.. what did you want now??"

"but you are different p.. you are not my pkit.."

"im not yours.. stop thinking like that... you make me feel something else.." pkit getting upset his voice be high pitch.

"what something else p?"

"stop it ming!"

"pkittt.. minggg... let eat.. mom just finish our dinner.." wayo shout from inside

"yeah.. im coming..." kit

"pkiit.. it just not end yet.."

but kit just go without say anything.. im really sure about pkit feeling.. remember about pkit confession make me think it serious about he love me... but now ... how about my feeling.. it true have he that one i love... 

it love or not?