Fractured Memories

my funeral

i thought you changed 

cared about my pains 

but you're the same

what's with this game 

if i die would you cry

or would you not care

doesn't matter if i'm there

im just a matter you were forced to look at

makes me wonder if i am lucid

this feels surreal 

it's hard to explain

all of my pains 

so is this a game 

or am i just lame 

and clinically insane 

for thinking this way

i cannot explain 

how this is a pain

to have to play this game 

i start to laugh while tears fill my eyes

cause it would be funny if i died 

yet at the same time i can't help but cry

guess i already died just only inside

-S.telles