Talking To The Night

I wrote this when I had jet lag.

Try flying
Start dying
Pick me and put me down
I am tired of waiting around

Don't stop
Till you drop

Can't climb
Slipping
Sliding

Pull me up
Push me down

I am not the same girl you have seen around

Keep flying
Don't stop trying
Keep climbing
And if you can't stop slipping or sliding start
Gliding

Don't close your eyes
Don't cover your ears
Don't shut your mouth

Shout
Shout loud
Shout clear
Even if nobody hears

Don't tell me it's a phase
Don't tell me I am less than human.
No one is.
It doesn't matter who i love.
It doesn't matter the colour of my skin.
It doesn't matter the faith i follow
I am no less human than you are.

I see an Angle

I see her here
I see her there

Reading her words
Brings me back to reality
She keeps me sane
Our world's are broken
But when we are together we are free.

And I don't think she realises how much she means to me

My Angel and me.

Our world's together in imperfect harmony.

The sweet lies.
The bitter truths.

And I cry when they try and take her from me.
When they rip her away.
And tell me it's a phase.
I'll grow out of it.

Fuck you I won't.

And we are both, trapped.

In the lies.
In this hell.
In a world that doesn't want us.

Conflicting, sky lifting
World shifting
Burning, churning.

We are dying while we are trying.
Keep calm
Carry on.

And I will not die.
I will stay strong for my Angel.

This world is fake.
They lie, Through their eyes.
Through their teeth.
In their sleep.
Now it's in our heads.
Killing us away.

Who are we to judge?
This lie we are all living.

Laugh, cry
We are all fine

We are all fine here.
I see what is not there.
I hear what is not there.
I am the blank space, in the night sky.

She is my guiding light.
My Angel in the night.

Who am i?
What am i?
Where am i?
Why  am i?

This could be my last.
But I don't know what this is the last of.

But I won't let it be my last

i am what i am and they can't change that.

I am what I am and they can't change that.

I am what I am and they can't change that.

I am what I am and they can't change that!

I AM WHAT I AM AND THEY CAN'T CHANGE THAT!

I am what I am and they can't change that.

But what am I?

Cry, don't die
Live & love
No hate
Smile, just for a while
When you can
If you can
Be what you are

Even if you don't know what you are.

And when it stops flowing.
When it goes cold.
What will we Do then?

When we find peace in this, fast flowing, always changing world, what will we see then?

I know what I want to see,
What do you want to see when you finally find peace?

Fuck this.

Swirling, twirling
Hiding.
Still surviving.

In the night.
In the day.
Hiding away.
From those we love.
From those we hate.

The ones who are ment to protect us,
they are the ones killing us,
inside our souls.
Inside our minds.
Inside our hearts.

Who we are isn't good enough for them.

We are dying while we are trying, and although we are still here, we are slipping.
Slipping into anxiety.
Slipping into depression.
Slipping into hell.

We are slipping while we are smiling, so you can't see us until we are six feet under.

Catch us while you can.
But you won't.

Not until it is too late.

Scream, shout
Yelling through this hell.

Friends, family.
Boyfriends, Girlfriends.
Lovers, haters.
Demons, priests.
I have seen it all.

I wish I could help my Angel out of her pain.
I will help my Angel.
For as long as I can.

Because I love her.

I am better than this.

Can you do something for me?

I want you to tell my Angel  how much she means to me.

Could you do that?

Don't stop
Until you fucking drop