Just Friends

One

I sat on my toilet opening the bottle I had in my hand. I peeled that cap off the huge pill bottle I had in my hand and spilled out a hand full. I stood up and walked over to the sink and the mirror. I looked myself in the eye and told my self I can do it. This is what I wanted for so long. Why couldn't I do it?

I pulled my phone out of my back pocket and went to my call log. I smiled when I saw that Tyler was my most recent call.

I had known Tyler since the second greade;when I was just a little akward girl. New to Marion - comimg from New York- so of course it was new to me. I remember when I was stuggleong with that little brown box and he helped me. After that we started hanging out more. And all I mean but that is he'd come over, we'd order pizza, and watch TV or Netflix- and my mom always thought we were doing stuff but we never had feeling like that for each other.

At least I don't think.