who are you? | t/obidei + hidadei ✓

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Deidara's POV

I've spent nights thinking about you after you died Sasori. My heart aches, everyone knew how close of a bond you and I had with each other. You may have not been the nicest person but I respected you so much that I eventually fell.

I didn't know we could feel anything. You being a puppet and me being some self-centered brat but I thought wrong.

Then I found you, I saw you as a crazy bloody worshipper of Satan. I met you, you had a foul mouth but your sense of humor was quite nice. You were there when no one else was, I developed a strong feeling of hope, the feeling I felt with Sasori but with you being my only best friend.. I can say that I fell in love with you and I'm glad that you felt the same.

Thanks you for everything Hidan-san.

Now Tobi is different. I never liked him in the first place but after that comforting chat from last night, I saw a different side of you. You're such an idiot but I'm an idiot as well.. I can say that I really like your personality more and can kind of click with you but..

I'm not falling for you yet but then, I know that it's too late.

I fall in love way too easily, un..

It's just that I can't afford to lose Tobi too..

Maybe you'll fade into ash just like the other two..

But it's impossible to not like you more than a friend, what if I want something more.

Something I've be waiting for, something I want so desperately and I'm going to die without.

And what that is?

That is love.

"Hey senpai?"

"Yeah, un?", I answer. "You can stop with your 'Tobi' facade, you can be yourself around me.", I add on, just to let 'Tobi' (or whoever he is) know that he can trust me.

'Tobi' clears his throat. "I - uh - I don't know what to say. But thanks. I kinda really do like you, no homo though."

"I feel like that we've been using 'no homo' too much, un."

"Fine. I love you Deidara."

"You need to be more chill, un. I'm trying to get over Hidan and his death. It still hurts when I think about him."

"You were the one who wanted me to say it you dummy.", 'Tobi' says.

"I'm your dummy.", I mumble as I lay my head against his shoulder. The raven removes his mask to reveal part of his face. He plants a small kiss on my forehead and I give him one back on the cheek. "You know.. Hidan would want me to leave and so would Danna, so I'll do it for them and you of course, un. I'll blow up with an explosion like art because.."

"..art is an explosion.", we say in unison.

"Am I art Deidara?"

"Of course you are. You're art to me and that makes you beautiful inside-out."