07/08/18
dear joon,
life's hard right now isn't it? we haven't talked for a week. i know i should understand that you're busy, but i can't help but feel jealous. jealous about how my friends can message their significant other anytime and also everyday. if i get lucky, i'll get at least a 'hi' or 'how are you', and those messages really makes me happy. but for the past week there's nothing. are we still together? i know what i signed up for when i said yes to you, but i miss the feeling of just talking and having time. maybe i'm being too selfish, and i'm sorry. i can't help it. your career is on it's peak right now, and i should understand the hardships of being an idol. sorry for being like this. i just miss you so much.
sometimes i feel guilty whenever i go out and have fun. i think about you all the time. i think about how you sacrificed all these normal 'human' things for your dream. i respect you for that.
i'll be waiting for you. always. i love you and i miss you so much. i hope you stay safe always.
- n. sh
