12/16/18
dear joon,
what's the point? what's the point of this relationship? i can't hold on any longer namjoon. i can't do this anymore. i'm hurting. i feel like i'm waiting for nothing. i feel like i'm wishing for rain as i wait in the desert. and i can't find my will to stay.
if we're over, please at least give me closure. tell me in my face that you don't want this anymore. please. i keep on trying to understand where you are coming from but my mind can't seem to wrap it around the idea that maybe you're done with me, with us. i want answers namjoon. i need them.
i love you so much that i need to let go. i can't continue to hurt myself for you. with all this emotional pain, i'd rather feel physical pain. and i'm sorry. i know once you see my scars you'll be disappointed, but i can't help it. i'd rather hurt myself physically, to stop this heavy feeling in my chest.
thank you for everything.
- n. sh
