08/03/18
dear joon,
i called you and you told me you were busy. i'm sorry i called. i thought you might've at least missed me. i guess not. i should not have assumed. i only ended up getting hurt.
taehyung talked to me. he asked for my help because he's having a hard time. he's feeling depressed again. i hope you notice and also help him. he doesn't want you guys to know, but i can't help but feel worried for him. he's keeping everything inside, and that's not healthy. he needs someone to be there for him, and i can't be that person.
i feel like i'm such a bad person. i'm really sorry. i can't help but compare you to taehyung. i can't help but ask how can taehyung make time to talk to me, but you can't? i'm hurting joon. i'm hurting so much. i want to hear your voice. even just a simple 'hi' or 'hello'. or a little 'how are you' will make me happy. i'm not asking for something big, i'm just asking for a simple thing that would take at least a second or two. i guess i'm being selfish aren't i?
but never mind all those things. i'm still holding on. i love you and i miss you. i hope you're safe and happy.
- n. sh
