Always

Chapter 5. Perfect Weather, not

Techno was lying on his bed, back turned against Kengkla and pretended to sleep. He doesn't know why he was being like this when he knows him and Kengkla were nothing. He wasn't even sure if the younger still likes him, even just as a person.

But maybe that's the problem with feelings, you can't force it and you can't just not feel it either.

Kengkla on the other hand was feeling really bad too. How could he have made such a stupid mistake like that when he knows too well that his P'Techno can be so insecure sometimes when there isn't even a reason to be. But Kengkla couldn't help but feel a little, just a little happy too.

When he's reacting like this, it means he still have feelings for me right?

It was stupid for Kengkla to think like that after what happened to them. He shouldn't feel anything for Techno, he should avoid and just ignore him because his P' did
hurt him. Kengkla was doing well until now.

He cheated on you remember? And he didn't even make any effort to have you back.

Kengkla was arguing with himself but he knows for a fact that his feelings for the boy never faded. Even if he hates to admit it, he was only doing well because he was ignoring his feelings and he was able to ignore it because he hasn't seen the older. But now that Techno is right in front of him and they're literally living together, it's clear to Kengkla that his feelings for the boy were the same if not more. He still loves Techno the same way he did before, even after what Techno did to him. As much as he hated Techno for what he did to him, it wasn't even half of the love he feels for the older.

And Kengkla hates seeing Techno sad and doubting himself like this.

If only he knows he have me wrapped around his fingers tsk!

It was raining hard outside. Kengkla could hear the sound of the rain. He loves that. He loves the weather like this. It was perfect. Maybe just this one time he could pretend everything was fine. Maybe just this one time he'll let loose all of his feelings. Just this one time.

And so Kengkla made his way to Techno's bed. He knows that Techno was just pretending to sleep. He always does this when he's upset with Kengkla. Kengkla then reaches his hand to Techno's shoulder to try to make the older face his direction but Techno didn't budge.

"Go away Kla I'm trying to sleep", Techno says sounding lazy.

"If you were really sleepy you would've fallen asleep already" Kengkla says while successfully making Techno face him.

"What do you want?" Techno asks Kengkla, Techno was frowning which to Kengkla was cute.

Not the right moment to think about it Kla.

"Why are you upset P'?" Kengkla asks with a serious tone.

"I'm not. I'm sleepy, i told you", Techno then tries to turn his back on Kengkla but Kengkla said something that made Techno remain in his current position.

"Just tell me directly if you're upset about Mild, i already told you it was nothing."

Techno was confuse as to why they were having this conversation. It's like nothing in the past year happened. It's like this was just another episode in their relationship where Techno was jealous over someone and Kengkla was there to assure him he doesn't have a reason to be.

Techno tries to remain unaffected.

"I really don't care about what's going on between you and Mild, that's your business."

Kengkla smiles faintly. "You always say that P' but you end up ignoring me and you always complain to P'Type about it. If only you could just tell me everything like you can tell P'Type then there wouldn't be a problem."