Dear Diary. (Jalbert)

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Dear Diary,

I know it's weird for me to be writing on the same day but I can't sleep. I legit just am not tired. This insomnia has been biting me in the ass lately.

I don't really know what to write. I guess I should write down my thoughts or what happened today. I did that already though. Maybe about what's keep me up? Well isn't it obvious...

I guess my main thought would be who was this guy. He literally walked in and acted as Jake's long distance boyfriend.

But he kissed me. Twice in one night. I'm so confused. I'm not even mad I just want answers.

Okay, that's a lie I am angry but still!

I can't wrap my head around this. This random shit head just comes up and leaves with Jake.

Am I not good enough? Is that what it is? Wait but Jake technically cheated with me  so that means I'm better right...?

But then why cheat? He seemed happy with the other guy.

Then again maybe he's poly? I know a lot of people that are poly. Wait, but I'm not poly!

He can't just assume that right?

Ugh life is so hard. I actually don't care if I'm being a typical dramatic teenager to be honest. Us teenagers have the right to be dramatic so fuck society.

Well that went off topic.

I still can't wrap my head around this Jake thing.

Maybe I should text him? Well..it's 2 in the morning so forget it. I could talk to him at school maybe if I can actually not let social anxiety get the best of me.

I feel like drawing now.