Two-bit and Steve ran up to me
Pushing thought everyone
taken it out of my hand
"What the hell!" Two-But yelled
"You told us you quit"steve says
"You promised" two-bit said softly
Everyone was inside the house
"I just can do this anymore, just a matter of time I'm gonna brake" I said softly
It was quite
"Is it because of her?" Soda asked
He meant my mom
"Partly" I mumbled
Two-bit troughs my pocket knife
"Touch another pocket a-and I'll-" he started to cry wiping the tears off I've never seen two-but cry other when dal died and the only other thing that would make him cry if it told him we'd never go to Disney land
He was sad when Johnny died but when dal died i don't think he could have taken two deaths in a day him and I are close I don't think he handle my death I hugged him
"You arn't gonna brake" he said his voice was cracking this point he was gonna cry
I let go
"Y/n you gotta understand this isn't helpin you" soda said
"You gotta stop these scars will be on you arms forever, you gotta" darry said
"You could cut a vain or somthen worse" Steve said
"Thanks for carin and all but what else can I do therapy but Y'all be payin to much" I said
"We'll think of somethin" darry said
I nodded I went outside All I wanted was to be somewhere where we were free, free of Anxiety, depression, from war, from Violence, and just be happy with friends, why isn't life easy
I thought
"You okay?" Pony asked
"I guess so" I said sitting at the steps he sat next to me
I laid my head on his shoulder
"Well me about Johnny, when you both where in the church. What did he look like before he died I didn't get to see him" I said
"It wasn't easy" he said
He told me about it
"Why don't I fit in?" I asked
I sighed and said
"I'm like a puzzle piece and I can't fine a spot" I said
"But then later your spot is found" he said
I smiled
We looked at the sun set
"I sure do miss dal and Johnny cake" I said
Tears filled my eyes
"Me to"He said
"What did Johnny mean when he said stay gold?" I asked
"I told him a poem" he said
"Can I hear it?" I asked
"Nothing gold can stay, her nature is first green is gold, her hardest hue to hold her early leaves a flower but only so an hour, then leaf subsidies to leaf so Eden sank to grief so dawn goes down to say, nothing gold can stay" he said
"I wish I was there, why was I stupid to go into the church I could have seen him if I didn't go" I said
"You saved children" he said
"Yeah" I said
He smiled
