Hurt •Niam•

I{chapter 6}

"You're a disgrace "

"Nobody likes you"

"Worthless piece of sh! t"

I whispered to myself, tear streaming down my face.

Everytime I was alone, hiding in my room. My thoughts got to me, reminding me of my dark thoughts. The feelings often overcame me, the only way I felt like I could make myself happy again was if I inflicted pain on myself.

Crawling out to bed, I slid down the wall.Pressing my knees to my chest.

"Why can't I do it, everyone's asleep? Why can't I just pick up the knife and kill myself? "I silently cried out, my body shaking and sobs escaping my parted lips.

I shake my head, I constantly smile at school,everyone thinks I'm the happy boy who everyone wants to hang out with but all I do at night is cry.

In my mind, ending it all was the only way to get away from the constant reminder in my head. Knowing I wont be enough, knowing I'll never be truly happy.

My eyes burned, my chest hurt, stomach turning as I wanted to throw up.

"I'm sorry dad. "I whispered, before slowly shutting my eyes. Still in the small corner with my knees to my chest.

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"Niall, hun, why are you on the floor? "Denise questioned, opening the door slightly.

I startled awake, my limbs sore from being in the same position all night.

"I couldn't sleep lying down, I think I'm getting sick"I lied, looking at my grey sweats. Noticing a small red patch on my thigh.

"Oh honey, if you want to stay home.I'll go make you some tea, if you'll like."She smiled, entering the fairly large room.

"I think I'm just going to lay down for a bit, I'm very tired"I weakly smiled, waiting for her to leave so I can get up.

Getting up, I silently groaned the burning sensation going up my thigh.

Changing into a pair of black sweats, I threw the dirty ones all the way in the back of my closet.

Climbing back into bed, I tried going to bed but all I could think about is last night.

Last night, was the first time I actually vented,cried until my eyes stinged, marked my thighs until I felt dizzy.

LIAMS POV

"I'll see you later,  I'm going to class"I waved to my friend, walking to the classroom.

Looking around the room, I saw Niall's seat vacant and Josh sitting alone.

I guess he's late or something I think, sitting next to Louis waiting for the blonde to show up. He was always so happy and cheerful, he always seemed to put a smile on my face. It was quite pleasant to see him happy all the time.

Minutes passed and I  knew Niall wasn't at school. It bummed me out a bit since he was the only tolerable person in this class.

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Walking home, I passed by the park. The sun was up and the trees glistened like it just rained but everything else was dry.

Not ready to get home, I walked deeper into the forest-like park.I saw a small figure sitting on one if the tree's tall tree branch.The tree was slightly swaying, barely noticeable but it seemed unstable and dangerous.

"Um kid"I screamed, walking closer to the large tree. Noticing it was Niall, looking at the view from the tree, he was dressed in dark skinny jeans and a long sleeve black shirt.

"Niall! "

The blonde jumped in fright, almost falling out the tree,causing it to sway.

"Niall, get down you'll get hurt"

He whispered something I couldn't hear, his eyes shutting closed. I could tell he was crying as his body shook along with the tree.

"Niall please, get down"

"I'm fine, I'm just enjoying the view"Niall shouted, slightly turning as he smiled, obviously fake.

"Are you sure? You dont look okay..."I trailed off, noticing how awkward it was since I barely knew him.

"I'm sure,just clearing my head. Nothing to worry about.Everything is perfect. "

"So can I go up there? "

"Liam can you please leave me alone, I want to be alone"His voice turned small, shaking a bit.

"I'm going up there if you dont come down "

Niall wiped his eyes as he slowly climbed down. Misplacing his foot a little as he fell, his back hitting the hard pavement.

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Sorry this was kinda weird, I dont know how to feel about it.

But I feel like next chapter will be more dramatic

-J