Music Sheets (iKON B.I)

Chapter 30-Pain & Vain

Koo Rae's POV

I woke up in my studio feeling tired and all. Hanbin's Jacket was keeping me warm and food was prepared on my table. I was still feeling horrible about what happened this morning. Someone entered my room and saw Lisa.

"Oh my gosh your eyes are so puffed. You look like you've been punched but you still look gorgeous tho." Lisa said and laugh

I sat down at the table and started eating.

"So what happened?" she asked me and I just told her the whole story while eating.

"Yah, are you going home? Where will you go? Are you gonna sleep in your car? How can you recklessly leave like that? Does Hanbin know? Where will you sleep? A hotel? What if--" i stopped her from talking and asked her a question I know she'll disagree with.

"Yah Pranpiya. Do you want to drink?" i asked her seriously

I saw how she's not buying it. And the look of disbelief is visible in her face.

"Amazing. Since your in pain, i'll drink with you." Lisa said and called someone in her phone.

"Yah, oppa. Can you book a suite later? Yes 5 star hotel. Well, Someone ran away from home. If that's called running away from home" Lisa ended the call and I stood in front of her in awe.

"You owe me one. How about your clothes? Your shoes? Salvador?" Lisa suddenly asked

Damn, I forgot about Salvador. I should've taken him. I'll just call Hanbin later. I went in front of my cabinet and opened the special shelf there.

"Bwoya?" Lisa asked.

I pulled out a luggage and she was so shocked seeing it.

"Yah, how are you so prepared?" Lisa
"This is my emergency clothes when I sleep here for urgent works." i said and she was so amazed.

"Why don't you sleep here then?" she asked
"We can't drink here and besides I bought a new dorm just above my dorm." i said

"Yah, why did you bought another dorm?" she asked.

"You know, even if I can feel favoritism I was ready to give my parents that dorm. And i'll move upstairs" i said

"You are one good daughter. Let's goooo! Let's be wasted tonight" she said

I want to forget all my hatred to my family. Because they are my only family. It's fine that I'm in pain, as long as they won't be.

To: Eomma,

Mianhae for what I've said earlier, I must be really tired. Don't worry about me. Just give me time to think.

We went out of our studio and it must be really my bad day, June and Hanbin saw us.

"Yah, eodiya? Did you eat already?" Hanbin
"I did. I'll text you later. Were going out" i said
"Yah, Yah! Don't you dare go clubbing" Hanbin said
"Yah, how can we go clubbing oppa? There will be like a lot of cameras pointing at me. " Lisa
"Annyeong!" i wave goodbye and I can see he's disappointed.

Lisa's manager fetch us in the company. And dropped us off in our room in a five star hotel in Seoul.

"Yah, you two. Don't drink too much okay? Don't do anything stupid." her manager left us alone.

She pulled out two bottles of wine. Wtf. Its champagne.

"Yah we can get knocked off in a second there." i said
"That's the point" she said
"Well, its you who'll get knocked off in a minute, I got high tolerance." i said

"But did you tell Hanbin?" she asked

"Ani" i replied

Hanbin calling...

"Speaking of" i said

I answered it and he started talking

"Eodiya?" Hanbin
"I'm in a hotel" i said
"Wae, wae? You have a house." he said
"I know. But I'm not ready to face them yet." i said
"Who are you with? Lisa?" Hanbin
"Obviously" i said and he just scoffed.
"What hotel? What room?" Hanbin suddenly asked which shocked Lisa

"Yah Yah Yah, oppa. This is getting uncontrollable. She's fine. Don't worry. I'm with her, till we wake up tomorrow. Okay? Now, we'll head on to our wasted day. Good night" Lisa ended the call without letting us speak to each other again.

"Yah, let me get this straight first. You, are wrong for leaving without notice. Okay? Yeol was worried. Yeol, was wrong, for bringing out the issue like it's your fault. But, I really think you should settle this soon, because Yeol might get depressed again." she said

"I told him not to be." i drank and she spoke again

"Yah! You can't tell a person not to get depressed. They don't get depressed when they feel like it. Even tho he doesn't want to, he might still be because of you. So if you don't want to feel the guilt, just lower your pride just for once." Lisa

I laughed as I felt the alcohol in my system.

"Yah, this is the first time I put my pride way up high. I'm in too much pain but I slept it all. My pride isn't even way up." i told her and drank another glass.

"Alright. That's it. I'm sleeping." she crawled up the bed and slept.

I guess i'll still be alone after all. Why did I even invited a person with low alcohol tolerance? I should have invited June. It runs in our blood.

I dialed a number and he immediately picked up.

"Yah, am I a bad person?" i asked
"Are you drunk?" he asked
"Am I a bad person oppa?" i asked again
"You're not. Stop thinking about the news. Start reconciling with your family" he answered.
"Bobby... when I'm not its Hanbin, I'm lonely but they supported me. When I'm with Hanbin, I'm happy But they hated me. Don't they want me to be happy?" i started sobbing and he just fell silent.

The call ended and he didn't gave me an answer.

"You're not a bad person. If you're happy with me, why would you let go of that happiness just for people to love you?" someone hugged me from the back that made me cry harder.

"How did you find me?" i asked in between of my sobs

"GPS" he answered and kissed my forehead.

"Hanbin ah, I love you" i said
"I love you too." he sealed the night with a kiss.

I'm sorry for thinking his way. But I also need to refresh my mind from all these things that are happening.