Crazy In Love (BL)

Snowfall.

Coffee in my hand, I sit in the office. My cheeks red and puffy from crying and my eyes a salmon pink. Mont, Matthew, and Rocker all sit infront of me, each one on their own stool. Everything seems a blur, the last years events are playing themselves like a tape cassette in my head, the static noise grinding my bones.

"Are you sure there's nothing else you can tell us about them?" Asks Mont, begging for my input on their new found evidence. Technically a suspect now, I'm not allowed to leave the state. I shake my head, sipping the sweltering liquid in my mug. "Don't pressure him for questions too much, you wouldn't want to be asked about three people you are grieving would you?" Says Matthew, scratching his head as he yawns sitting back on his chair. It's been a long day.

"You're free to go Thawn, you can have a paid absence tomorrow considering your case, it will leave us to try make any further connections," i gesture a thank you, forcing a smile as Rocker hands me my coat. "Be careful," He quotes, watching as I leave the building. Looking up, I see dark grey clouds whirling above, the freezing climate can only mean that it will snow down in only a matter of time.

Taking my usual route I walk home, walking up my stairs to my loft apartment. I notice the lobby door is open, brushing it aside I continue.

Upon opening my door, it lets out a loud creak into my empty room. I stroll in slowly, dropping my leather briefcase onto the floor as I walk toward my sofa; leaving the lights off to give me eyes a break.

I instantly flop onto it, grabbing the blanket by my side and wrapping it around my body. I let out a quite whimper as tears begin to leave my face, I can't help but continue to cry. My eyes wish to drift to sleep, but my body doesn't allow me as I continue to exert raw emotions through my tears.

Turning my head away from my wet palms, I look over to the window. Outside I see a steady paced flow of glossy snow glide from the murky sky, soaring like swallows. I tremble at the thought of the cold, shivering in despair as it makes me feel more isolated than before.

"You look beautiful when your cry,"

No, please no, please just say this is a dream, please oh please. I keep my eyes set on the windowsill in complete denial. Nursing myself as I whisper, it's not real, it's not real, he's not here. "I'm as real as you are Thawn." He drifts, I hear his voice become shallow and deeper. Deciding to reply, I attempt to banish him from my grief "Please, just l-leave," I whimper, idling my head to the floorboards below.

The moons rays shine inwards, allowing me a small glint of light. "Why would I do that?" He jokes, I can hear the smirk on his face. I listen as he walks closer, I itch in my stance as I feel his presence behind me. Two strong muscular arms wrap around my small frame, I begin to shiver in fear. "Don't be scared," He connotes, as I feel his hot sticky breath against my neck. I let out a small whimper in protest, as his arms create circular patterns along my ribs. "You should eat more Thawn, I'm worried for your weight baby," He drones, his fingers ripple up my ribs. His back placed on my spine. I continue to stare out the window, hoping some passer by may see me.
Anyone.
Please.
Help.