0° Celsius :To Thaw A Frozen Heart ( Sample)

ending the pain

I granted his wish
I never showed him my face again
6 months have passed since I last saw him
Just 6 and it feels like I haven't met him in eternity.

How is life if you ask?

Well it's stagnant...boring...dull..depressing

I got a job after all...
I am not very proud in telling what is it.
But at least it is the only one I have.

"Sapphire!! You are needed here!!"
I looked around to see my co worker holding out the garbage bag for me.

I grabbed it and made my way towards the dumpster in the alley.

The clothes I wore were not at all decent.
It was my work dress so I didn't had a choice.

Night was approaching and my shift was going to start.
Breathing a long sigh I searched my pocket
Placing two tablets in my mouth I was ready to go.

If you are wondering if I am fine?
Well I am to the outside world..but my  reports tell something else.

My emotions are going haywire
I cry all nights and start laughing without any reason.
My immune system is getting weaker and not to mention that even my bone density is decreasing.
Palpitations were normal before but now I am getting seizures...

I am a mess and I know if this continues what will happen.

Why don't I try?
Well I have...I am trying...I try each and every second...but I cannot control it any longer.

The doctor says mine is a rare case..
The medicines have adapted to my body and with each passing week I need to change them.
He says I should improve but he doesn't know why I am not improving.

But I know why

Andro is getting married in a week
The news is all over the tabloids.

"The most handsome heartthrob bachelor Alessandro Romano has finally found his match Andrea Stone!!"

Their words not mine.

I wiped the lone tear that managed to escape and made my way to the main counter.

Improvement comes with inspiration
Inspiration to live,enjoy,love
But I have none.

These eyes are dull now
My figure is that of a stick
And these hands keep shaking every now and then.

My eyes landed on the ring in my finger and I realised that even the ring did not fit me now.
It was loose on my fingers .

I think I should return it now..
I never deserved it from the start..
It was for Andrea from the very start.

I was just a trial....

"Sapphire you are on duty today...make sure our guests are pleased!! They are very influential people...I will not tolerate any mistakes...okay?"
The manager spoke as I nodded

Picking up the tray I started my shift.

Few hours later.....

Smell of smoke and alcohol lingered
The neon lights and blasting music were making the crowd go crazy.

The VIP rooms at the top floor overlooking the dance floor was all occupied.
The special guests had arrived and I was climbing up the stairs balancing the drinks.

As I opened the door a different atmosphere welcomed me.
No music entered the sound proof walls only loud laugh s of the men inside the room were audible.

As I made my way towards their table I saw some of them looking at me.
But I was no fool to look back at them.
They were powerful people and I was just a fly they could crush in their hands.