I think the hardest part of losing someone ,isn't having to say good bay but rather learning to live without them always trying to fill the avoid, the emptiness that's left inside your heart when they go ...
i'm tried of crying
i'm tried of begin sad
i'm tried of feeling stuck ...in the past
i just wanna be happy again ...but the memories wont seem to let me go
i miss everything about him ...our long walks ..his kisses ..his abs ..his smile ..hair ..and everything else ..i hear his voice in my ear , " i love you " " i've missed you" " that's my girl " " i'll never stop loving you" " babe , where's my phone " " cupcake , kiss me " ...Ah memories
" i get girl pregnant and kill my own child " i remember when he said that , when he leaves me ...
sometimes i wonder if he's alive ...
6 month ago we stayed up talking till 3 am and today i don't even know where the fuck he is
every night i put my head to my pillow i try to tell myself i'm strong cause i've gone one more day without you ...but it's not helping anyway ..i'm not strong enough
i can't handle this anymore ...you know i keep all his stuff in one big box cause deep down i believe that one day i'll open the door to see his beautiful face
i don't care if he kill someone ...no i care it was a little baby ...but i love Justin and ...the little baby ...i love Justin but ..he leaves me ..it's complicated
i'm just ...i'm done . that's it ,we live in a horrible world
i'm stuck .
So here i am , standing in the middle of my room ..Alone as always
i check my phone ..Oh , i have message
Unknown : i really don't know what to say ...i really do miss you , i want you back to my life like we used to be
well , that's weird ..It cant be Justin i have his number
Me : sorry , wrong number
after 1 Minute he reply
Unknown : oh baby ! i still love you , i just want you to know that i will do anything to get you back into my arms
what the hell was that ?! maybe he's an old man how want to get into my pants ..that creepy
i put my phone in my backpack and i went to hell ( school )
* in school *
" Salma !! hey " someone called for me , i turn around to face Chris the new boy ..
" oh , hi Chris "
" whats up " he said smiling
" Nothing much "
" can i walk you to class ? " he asked
" uh ..S-sure " i nodded
" why are so .." he paused ! " so ..upset so sad ..i mean you're to beautiful to hide you know !! "
" no i'm not sad or upset ..it's just me well thats me "
" oh ..o-okay " he said and made a face
" can we hang out together ? today after school ? maybe " he asked me with a smile
" uh-h i have so much to do !! i can't ..i'm sorry "
" oh no don't apalozie ! it okay "
" so that's my class !! bye Chris "
" later , beautiful "
Honestly !! i have nothing to do ..i'm just scared of having fun and enjoying life ..
it's complicated ,
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" Wait , you're moving ? " i ask my best friend Kendall
" uh - yea on Thursday "
" Do you even realize that Thursday is in two days away ? " i cried .Sighing . i sat down in my desk chair " you are the only one i talk to in school , and now you're leaving me just like Justin "
" No , salma i can't leave you !! Bff forever remember ? "
i nodded and she stard cyring and i did the same
So here i am ...Alone and sad again
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Teen Fiction“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up.”
