Forty three ☾

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Ethan

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Ethan

Do you ever have those days when you feel like you're drowning and no matter how hard you swim, you can't get to the surface to breathe? No matter how much you want to live you're body just gives up?

Call me a pussy, call me a fucking snowflake, but my only source of oxygen is a girl, without her I can't breathe.

When I'm away from her my body goes into a state of panic, constantly needing her in my embrace. Call me possessive and selfish, but I need her so bad.

The look on her angelic face when I snapped at her killed me. I was already going down a dark road, and I wasn't going to hold her hand and give her a personal tour of hell with me.

As I sit here holding the most important person in my life, I realized.. I'm such a fucking screw up.

What is she going to do when she finds out? What's going to happen when I beg her to let me explain but all she can do is wonder why she wasn't 'good enough.' I can't lose her, because she's the best damn thing that's ever happened to me, good enough would be the understatement of the century.

"Can we g-go home?" The voice said as I felt hot breath on my neck. I felt my arms immediately flinch to hold her tighter at the thought of her moving. I nodded kissing the crown of her head letting my lips linger there closing my eyes.

per favore non lasciarmi
(Translation> please don't leave me)

Fuck. I have to get my stuff from when I was being a little pussy, and honestly thought I was just gonna leave. Liv's breaths got steady and hit my neck in a calm rhythm telling me she fell asleep.

I looked down admiring her small frame in my arms, and angelic face on my shoulder. I couldn't stop the smile that spread across my face as she whimpered cuddling closer to me, clutching my shirt in her hand.

I reluctantly tore my eyes away from her, and forced myself to stand up, holding the back of her thighs as she held my neck. My knees felt week as all I wanted to do was go far away and hold her in my arms forever knowing she's safe, and with me.

I held her waist with one arm completely embracing her tightly, as I reached out opening the door with my bruised free hand. I let my hand return back to its rightful spot around her waist, and headed out of the room.

"Hey asshole." The familiar voice said from far in front of me. Looking closer I realized the voice belonged to the one and only Alex. I glared at him as I walked closer and held Liv tighter as I stood still in front of the three stooges.

"You know she let you off too easy." Kai stated surprisingly angry.

I know damn well she let me off easy, and that's why I'm going to spoil the actual hell out of her until I make it up to her.

"I think I fucking know asshat." I snapped watching a smirk grow in his cocky face. He chuckled and Alex stretched our his arm patting my shoulder which wasn't supporting Liv's head.

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