ella (again holla)
amy’s scream echoed around the room.
he’s alive he’s alive he’s alive.
despite the definite blood i felt on the side of my face, i knew he was alive.
he’s alive he’s alive.
despite his grip weakening from my hand, i knew he was alive.
he’s alive he’s alive.
he had to be alive. i wasn’t ready to go either.
i squeezed michael’s hand, my eyes still shut. his hand was still warm.
“squeeze back, squeeze back,” i pleaded in a whisper.
“squeeze back squeeze,” my tone got louder.
“michael baby squeeze my hand,” i shouted, tears furiously rushing down my face as i refused to open my eyes. my life was already dark without him - no use covering it up.
i squeezed michael’s hands as sobs racked through my body. i felt luke out his arm around my shoulder, comforting me in a way. but what comfort is there when the reason i smile is dead?
sobs continued to rake through my body, and i could hear the same coming from the group. i didn’t dare look, my eyes remaining squeezed shut.
i knew what i had to do. i needed to see him again, and i wouldn’t wait for the gun to land on me to do it.
“luke,” i croaked. sniffles were my only reply.
“luke.” i raised my voice.
“what?” he croaked out. with my other hand i wiped the sticky tears off my face and took in a deep breath.
“pass me the gun.”
“no.”
“fucking do it luke.” i knew i scared him into getting it for me. i felt him lean over me and seconds later, the gun was in my palm.
“isabelle,” all i needed was a bullet and i’d be set.
a questioning hum was my answer.
“pass me a bullet, and leave the sarcasm to yourself.” i could almost see her smirk, even with my eyes shut.
i detached my hand from michael’s, immediately missing the feel of his comfort, of him. another sob racked through my body.
“luke load it for me,” i held out my hand which held the gun and bullet.
“i’m not gonna do that ella,” he said. i was sick of his pussyness (is this even a word idk). he had an excuse for everything.
“i’ll fucking do it then,” i spat out as i did. it was hard, with my eyes shut and all, but i managed to load it. i raised it to my head
“have fun with your sick game isabelle,” i spat out. “see you all on the other side.”
i took in a deep breath and pulled the trigger, michael’s name being my last thought.
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hey guys.
i just had a panic attack and i feel like shit and this chapter is shitty and im sorry but im really tired but i wanted to get this updat eout for you guys.
smile babys.
ella
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russian roulette → fivesauce
Fanfictionin which seven teenagers have fun with bullets and a revolver. @smokable twenty fourteen 23/9/15 - #53 short story