Started With An Audition

Chapter 7

Adam POV

I couldn't help but look at Tommy Joe for the full of the rehearsal. I could feel my heart break little by little every time I thought of what I saw earlier. Why would he do that to his beautiful body. I might have shouted at him but I still couldn't help but think how pretty he looked. All rehearsal he kept his head down and didn't look up at me own which doesn't surprise me I was the cunt that gave him a hickey on his neck which I can see clearly right now then tell him to pretty much fuck off cause of my stupid mind, man I hate Suali, what happens if I'm the reason he did that to himself.

To be honest looking at Tommy and thinking about it he looks very underweight, I sometimes don't eat cause I'm a fat cunt but he looks like he hasn't eaten in weeks, it worries me.

I was so lost in my thought I didn't notice everyone had stop doing what they were doing even Tommy and was looking at me. I ran my fingers through my hair and walked to the mini fridge and grabbed the spot size bottle of whiskey and downed it in one. Seems like I can't go a day without the poison in my body. I turned around to the full band giving me a worried look.

"Guys I'm not feeling myself can we leave it here for today?" I said taking a deep breath. The band nodded and started to pack away their stuff.

I walked over to Tommy "Don't forget what I said earlier, pack up your bass and meet me outside". He went to speak but then just nodded in agreement.

I walked outside to the front of the building and lit a cigarette. Thankful Sutan had to go somewhere so he doesn't know about last night and that's the way I want it to stay.

Soon enough a small, fragile Tommy walks out the building. I gave him a small smile which he quickly returned but then went to looking at his feet. I stubbed out the cigarette that I once held in my hand and soon the Uber I already ordered was here.

*Time skip to the restaurant

We sat in the restaurant, I had a double vodka and coke and Tommy was nursing a water. Every so often he would look up at me like he was going to talk but then didn't so I felt like I had to make the first move.

"So........." I said then taking a deep nervous breath. You could feel the awkward tension between us and if we were to preform on stage with each other in less than two weeks I needed that to disappear. I looked at the hickey on his neck again feeling butterfly's grow in my stomach again with the memory of how amazing kissing his neck felt. He caught me looking and quickly covered it with his hand, I could see a small blush appear on his face and I couldn't help but smile.

"I'm sorry about that" I said looking at my now empty glass.

"It's fine" he mumbled watching the waiter come to our table with his food. It might have only been a small mac and cheese but I was honestly happy to see him eat something. He was too skinny for my liking, but I couldn't help but be a little jealous.

"Aren't you getting something?" he looked at me whilst playing with his pasta.

"I ate earlier don't worry about me" I said with a fake smile which lucky for me he bought. I ordered another double vodka and coke and watched as Tommy picked at his food almost looking at it like he was going to be sick.

"So......Tommy about what I saw today" I said coughing nervously.

"What about it?" he asked not giving me eye contact but to be honest I felt a little happy he was even talking to me.

"Why?" was the only word I could get out.

"Cause I could" he said shrugging his shoulders and I couldn't help but feel a little annoyed at his action.

"Tommy" I snapped a little to roughly causing him to jump a little. I signed and took a breath "Sorry...just it hurts thinking that you hurt yourself"

"Why would you care? I'm only your bass player" by this point he was looking at me, his brown eyes darker than normal.

"Your more than a bass player Tommy Joe, your family now" I said taking his hand that wasn't holding a fork and rubbing his knuckles. He looks down at my hand almost studying it a little. "I care about you Tommy" his eyes looked at me confused.

"Why?"

"Because your special and I promise this isn't the alcohol talking, your beautiful, talented and I'm lucky I have you as my bass player" he smiled a little and covered his face with his fringe giving me the hint he was blushing. I lifted his hand clearly and softly kissed it then intertwined our finger's, my leather gloves holding his bare hand.

"Please call me next time you feel this way, I'll always answer" I said getting lost in his eyes, he gave me a nod and with that I ordered another drink and he continued to eat his pasta in silence. 

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