Forgetting Forever

Chapter 5

After School*
 
  My mind was racing trying to get out of school. Its Friday and that means the next two weeks  am going to be free from everyone here. Thank You Lord. I didn't want him to take care of me, my mind running back to what Harry had said earlier. I was scared, i'm not sure what I was scared of because its not like he was being rude or hurting me.
  I was right by the student exit to start my walk home when I felt a hand on my lower back. I froze, it could be one of two people and I was dreading to face whichever one it was. "Hey love."  Of course it was Harry. I turned to face him and instantly got irritated. 

Hes not going to hurt you can you not just trust a boy for once. Of course I couldn't God knows how he will end up once he gets what he wants. Me and my conscious fought back and forth like the devil and angel on my shoulders. 

 "Do you even know my fucking name?" I asked him sharp and cold, regretting it as soon as the words left my lips and I saw the pain in his beautiful green eyes from my sudden burst of rudeness. All of the students in the hall were now outside, either walking home or getting into the cars most of their parents bought them. The sun was still bright and the way I was faced it went right through his brown curls. 

  "Well.. no not yet but I was hoping I could if you didn't mind?" He has taken his hand off my waist by now and was leaning against the exit door. He looked nervous but I knew he was trying to hide it. I wanted him so bad. I wanted so badly to just wrap my fingers in his curls and hear his deep moan against my neck while he kissed all the right spots. I couldn't and I knew that more than anyone. He was just going to hurt me like Daniel did. Why was he making it so hard for me to make up my mind?

  "What does it matter to you? you're just going to hurt me. As soon as you get what you want." I was shocked I had said that. I kept going back and forth in my head about how I was feeling about this boy with the British accent and green eyes. I made up my mind that I would not let myself fall for someone just to get hurt. I have made it so far. 

 Harry looked disappointed that I would say something like that but what came out of his mouth fucked me up even more. "Well I have a girlfriend for starters so I didn't plan on using you for anything, and I just wanted to make sure you weren't fucked up over that dude." Of course hes taken. How would someone so caring and so majestic be single. "Fuck." is all I muttered. 

 Before I knew it he was leaving through the door his back was just against, moments ago looking at me with concern and he had just left me. I probably upset him a bit but honestly it was probably for the best. I cant believe he has a girlfriend, honestly I could believe that. But why all the staring? why that wink? My mind was racing. I left through the same exit door feeling uneasy and broken, but why? I made my way home. I had tea for Madison.