Poetry

Buried Love

~'~'~'Written on 9th May 2019 about my love.'~'~'~

I love him so much,

I need his words not his touch,

I love it when he doesn't just tell me,

But also shows me,

My love isn't just a knowing, it's a feeling,

To me he's extremely appealing, 

I trust and I know he'd never deceive, 

I'd hate for either him or I to leave,

I want the two us to stay,

Every word of his can either make or ruin my day,

Every word of his affects me greatly,

Even in my worst times he can still make me smile and be giggly, 

We were once so connected that even the distance,

No matter how far it was it made no difference, 

Though things have been slightly different lately,

We're no longer one in soul as we used to be,

When he first pulled away so did I,

Our present isn't like our past which now looks like a lie,

Now about our feelings we have to hide,

We never foresaw this we had thought our love would stand  the time's tide,

I miss the time when we were so close,

When our feelings hadn't begun to fade but when it arose,

In the past I always ran from love,

But he made me believe in us and so I gave in seeing on him an Aphrodite's dove,

He never ran away even after knowing the true me,

It makes me so very happy to know I have his heart's key,

He knows me so well better than anyone else,

Oh to have his love I'm so blessed,

Even now he can tell when I'm not alright,

And he won't stop trying until I'm doing alright,

He can tell when I'm being misleading,

Always my expectations he's exceeding,

We can't be together because our situation is tough,

I feel for him I'm not good enough,

All he does is give and all I do is take,

All he is with me is great but all I do is make mistakes,

I consider him my Twin Flame,

This love is coursing through my veins,

We may not physically be each other's but in other ways I'm  his and he is mine,

To me his love for me is divine,

I miss the forehead kisses he used to give me,

I rushed us too fast so now we aren't what we were meant to be,

There was once a time that he'd always tell his friends,

 That I am the best thing to have ever entered his life,

I should've known this would happen since all great things come to an end,

I still remember the time and I think secretly he does too when we both wanted me to be his wife,

I wish our love we could mend,

I wish to turn back time, wait  and change things so unlike now we wouldn't be on thin ice,

It would be a lie if I said I don't want to experience our joyful times one more time,

And if I could this time I wouldn't back down or allow  him to prevent my sacrifice,

What we're going through now is just a cruel crime,

Though it has all been so long,

He  still doesn't stop me from feeling like with him I belong,

Although I want him to move on,

A small part of me doesn't want him  to go on,

I know they aren't cute,

But lately we've had a lot of disputes,

A part of us wants to go our separate ways,

Another part wants us to stay.