Poetry

Shattered Heart

~'~'~'Written on the 16th May and continued on May 19th 2019  about the only person I ever fell in love with.'~'~'~

Considering our past was so real, 

I'm confused about how I truly feel,

At times I feel like I have moved on,

On others I feel like I am still holding on,

I can't tell if my feelings are still real,

Or if it's just a ghost coming to haunt me,

To all around me, even my friends I've to conceal,

I can't let anyone know you still hold my heart's key,

I know I don't love you anymore,

But if I'm completely over you, I'm not so sure,

My feelings are a confusion,

My feelings kinda feel like an illusion,

How I feel I cannot tell,

Everything for me changed,

When for you I first fell,

You used to make me feel free now I feel chained,

I used to want us to never go on,

But now all I want is to move on,

My heart's now shattered,

All the tiny little pieces scattered,

Past heartbreaks were small and didn't truly matter,

But the moment we broke up my heart began to shatter,

You had brought me comfort despite my insecurities,

In this chaotic world you and our love had been my only clarity,

All I want now is to kill this love,

So, I pray to my God above,

To help me move on,

'Cause I know it's time to stop holding on.