Being different (Grizz Visser just wants to be accepted)[on hold until season 2]

Chapter 2

Warning: self harm
I will tell you when it starts and ends if you want to skip it

After what it felt like hours Grizz was still crying and everyone downstairs was still arguing "I need something to take the pain away," Grizz said to himself, he looked around the room and saw his pocket knife "I haven't cut in a long time." He said to him self again

Self harm starts here

Grizz grabs the knife and looks at his arm full of old scars "well here wo go again,"

Grizz runs the knife down up and down his arm it stings but feels good, he forgot how much this helps his pain

I'm worthless
*cut
No one needs me
*cut
I should just die
*cut

After about 15 cuts Grizz cleans up the blood and then wraps his arm in gauze wrap. Then he gets ready for bed and falls asleep immediately from the blood loss.

Self harm over now

Grizz wakes up and gets ready for the day he looks down at his arm remembering what he did last night, Grizz starts to cry now he wishes that this whole ordeal was just over already.

"Hey Grizz are you okay!?!?" Jason says outside the door
Grizz quickly wipes his tears and try's to think of something to say,
"Uhhh yeah it's just allergies,"
"K well breakfast is ready come down before it's all gone!"
After Jason leaves Grizz gets up to only fall back down to his bed, his head starts to hurt so he goes to take a Advil, when Grizz looks at himself in the mirror he sees that he has bags under his eyes and they are red and puffy from crying, the more he looked at min self the more flaws he saw
"I'm fat!"
"My hair is weird!"
"I look fucked up!"
"I look miserable."
Grizz turned his head away from the mirror and headed downstairs
"HEY GRIZZ, sorry about last night!" Luke says to Grizz
"It's fine I understand we have to adjust to the new leaders,"
Lexie cuts in
"Exactly!.....that's why we are hosting a meeting to discuss the new rules!"
„how many rules did you change?" Luke asked
"I've changed almost all of them, made them better, and the rest got rid off like the rationing of food,"
"WHAT!!" The guard yells all together
Harry cuts in
"Why would we need it if we are all going to die sometime or later?,"
"Yeah but now we will die faster,"
Everyone turns to see Gordie walking in
"Yeah he's right, if we don't ration people will go crazy and start to raid that means some people will have more food to them selves than 10 other people, it's not a smart idea....WE NEED TO RATION!!" Grizz states leaving the conversation with Lexie and Harry left stunned.

Hope you all liked it sorry about the self harm (I told you I was mean)

Love you guys <333333. remember don't hurt yourself