Being different (Grizz Visser just wants to be accepted)[on hold until season 2]

Chapter 6

El Time skip after cleaning the cafeteria

No ones POV

After cleaning up the cafeteria for what it felt like forever, Grizz was walking home with the rest of the guard, Grizz had his mask on talking to the others and cracking jokes.
That made Luke's and Jason's worries about Grizz go away
He was acting like his old self again.

But if they only looked closer they'd notice that his smile was a sad one that didn't reach his eyes, that his arms had bandages on them underneath his sleeve, his eyes had dark bags under them, and how starved he looked.

Grizz's POV

I felt like I was going to crumble right there my mask was starting to break, I needed closure I NEEDED to cut, to cry, to be alone. But I still kept that smile, I still kept cracking jokes, I still kept talking.

After Clark and Jason were dropped off at their houses it was just me and Luke, we didn't say a single thing I felt like my mask was completely broken and he could see right through me.

I couldn't let that happen.
He needs to think I'm fine.
He doesn't need to worry.
I'm alright...,right?
I'm fine?

.I'm FINE.

I couldn't say anything, I felt like if I did I would burst into tears,
And I couldn't let that happen
I don't need him to worry about me
There is nothing he needs to worry about

.I'm FINE.

So I stayed silent
I didn't speak a word
We walked in silence
I felt alone.

.I'm FINE.

Luke's POV

Walking home with just Grizz was tough, I knew he wasn't alright
But I'm so confused he was just talking and laughing earlier,
How could he be so silent now.

I wanted to say something,
I wanted him to laugh again
I want him to smile.
I don't want to look at him and see sadness
He was broken
But I didn't realize it before.

He was broken and trying to pick up the pieces to fix himself to only fall apart again.
I need to say something
I need him to smile
I need to know he's alright

But I didn't.
I didn't say anything
I didn't tell him everything would be alright
I wanted to tell him he wasn't alone in this.
But I didn't

I watched him fall apart
I watched him knowing he was depressed
I watched him knowing he thought he was alone
I knew he was upset
I knew he wanted to cry right then and there
I knew he wasn't alright

But I didn't say anything
I watched him and walked in silence
I could've helped him
But...

...Instead I was the end of him.

Good gosh that was fun to write poetry class did me good for once

I might do more chapters like that in the future I can make them really deep
Well anyways....

Love you all and remember to express who you are <3333333