Being different (Grizz Visser just wants to be accepted)[on hold until season 2]

Chapter 5

3 days after Sam's and Grizz's date

Grizz's POV
I've felt like shit these past couple of days not eating nor sleeping, I cut at least 2-3 times of day. I'm in a such dark place right now that I hide all my emotions around my friends

I put on a mask.

The dark thoughts get to me so easily now
You're useless
"Stop"
Everyone HATES you
"Please, stop"
You should kill your self
"Shut up"
DIE!!
"I said STOP!!"

I start sobbing, I just want the pain to end,
I grab my knife and hold it next to my arm I roll up my sleeve to revel dozens spin dozens of cuts up and down my arm.

"This time i will end it. End it all" I say to my self
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*knock knock*
I flinch at the sudden sound
"Grizz are you all right?"
I hear luck say. The door knob starts move
In a sudden panic I hid my knife under my pillow, rolled down my sleeve, and wiped the tears away from my cheeks
"Yeah....im fine." I say in a raspy voice

*Luke walks into Grizz's room*

"K, well just making sure cause I heard you yell stop," Luke asked almost as if it was a question
"oh yeah....I'm just talking to my self." Grizz responded
"well breakfast is ready," Luke says trying to break the tension in the room
"Okay," Grizz mumbles back trying to avoid eye contact.

Luke's POV

Grizz has been acting weird lately almost like he was replaced by a robot, and Jason has noticed too, we try to talk to him but will Lexie rule we have barley anytime to hang out anymore. So any chance I get to talk to Grizz he acts like everything is fine, which I know it's not.

"Hey, is Grizz alright?" Jason asked

"I don't know he wouldn't tell me anything." I respond
"Maybe I should go up and check on him," Jason says

At that moment Grizz walks downstairs with a fake smile plastered on his face.
"Check on who?" Grizz questions
"Uhhh no one," Luke and Jason say at the same time in a mild panic

"Okay then what's for breakfast?" Grizz asked the two boys only to get cut off by Lexie walking into the room, with harry and Campbell following her.

"Garbage and Shit, because you guys were late to guard duty yesterday you will be cleaning the cafeteria!"

No ones POV

A bunch of what the fuck and seriously's were thrown around the room.
But Grizz was actually happy about this because he didn't have to pretend like he was eating because he didn't have to.

Sorry it took so long to update. I've had a lot on my plate, also sorry it was a short chapter
But I got the chapter out yay!
Love you all stay amazing <3333333