It was elementary school and somehow people were already getting crushes.
It was easy to play along since it seemed like the fastest runner was the crush everybody "chose"
"Of course I crush on him", I'd say, "Everybody does"
But that wasn't the truth at all
I remember the time I was forced to flirt in maybe 4th grade. I didn't see the point of it and was naturally not flirtatious, but I tried anyway.
Obviously I was not the best
I remember a boy in 3rd who moved away and then I decided to "crush" on him because everyone HAD a crush.
Yet I didn't pine over him while he was gone, everything went on as normal.
I remember "crushing" on another boy when crushes actually got serious in 5th grade. I even asked him out while we walked around the playground.
He said no and I wasn't upset.
I couldn't understand while people "chose" to put theirselves through heartbreak...
Until I realized it wasn't a choice...
I had empathy for them as I care way too much about other people, but I never truly understood the concept of love.
And to this day I still don't
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Alone Without Loneliness
Non-FictionThe story of how a young girl realized she wasn't broken like the world thought she was 💔 She was just Aro/Ace