going crazy | kaisoo

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Up and down like a roller coaster
Have I not gotten a hold of myself, yet?
I sink into this dark, swirling swamp
Struggling three times, four times, and it'll keep repeating

Jongin sees the house, but doesn't get off. He sits in the car, drumming his fingers against the steering wheel, imagining the shed on fire. Imagining him setting the shed on fire.

To distract himself, he flicks through his phone. A series of texts, missed calls, and voicemails from Sehun awaits him.

Jongin, I'm sorry about what I said, the first voicemail begins. I think we were both angry and said a lot of stuff we didn't really mean. Please come home, and let's talk it over together.

The voicemail ends.

Minseok hyung told me you were at the hospital. Are you on your way home? Please call back.

There are more, but Jongin doesn't bother listening to the rest. He drums his fingers more quickly. He's changed his mind three, four times now. Maybe even more. He has to make a final decision and stick with it.

Taking a deep breath, Jongin stops drumming his fingers. He lets his fingers relax on the wheel, sliding his left hand down to start the engine, when he spots Kyungsoo walking up to his window.

"Kai!" he greets. "You're here! I knew you would be."

Jongin forces a smile back as he lowers the window. How can he tell Kyungsoo he doesn't want to do it anymore?

"Kyungsoo, what are you doing here?"

"Something told me you would pick tonight to do this," he said with a huge grin, "and I was right! Come on, open the back."

Confused, Jongin does as he says. What's in his trunk?

He doesn't need to wait long to find out, as Kyungsoo quickly goes and brings back a large jug of . . .

"Gasoline," Jongin says slowly. How could he have forgotten? He's had that in the back in case he ever broke down somewhere.

"Well?" Kyungsoo says. "Let's go!" Without waiting for a reply, he turns around and hauls the jug across the street.

"Wait!" Jongin quickly undoes his seat belt and runs after his friend. "I actually --"

"Actually what?" Kyungsoo turns around and Jongin is about to tell him, but he sees the huge smile on his friend's face. He's never had a smile that big on his face before.

Jongin falters. "Um, do you really want to do this that badly?"

Kyungsoo laughs. "Of course! Don't you think it's the best revenge for you?"

Jongin turns back to his car, which isn't too far away. He could walk back, and leave Kyungsoo alone. He can forget about all of this. But he turns back to his friend, who started walking and is now on the sidewalk.

Sighing, Jongin quickly runs after Kyungsoo. He can't let him do it alone.