A Reason to Live (Penguin x Reader)

Chapter 4 ~ Lemon

The next morning you felt so much better. Better than you ever felt in fact. It was warm as you nuzzled into the musky smelling pillow. To which your pillow nuzzled back.

You frowned completely confused. When did pillows start to cuddle? You slowly opened your eyes and stared at someone's collarbone. Slowly you raised your eyes up and came face to chin with a sleeping Penguin.

You attempted to pull away from him gently, only to be pulled back against his broad chest. There wasn't much you could do with your arms pinned to your sides and your legs entangled with his. You felt a blush crawl up your neck. You took a calming breath trying to remember what happened last night. Your blush only got darker as a floodgate of images besieged your mind. You pressed your face against Penguins bare chest out of instinct.

'Wait..... Bare chest?' You opened your eyes to confirm. Yep his toned chest and abdomen was exposed slightly. His boiler suit was left open and teasing your mind.

'How the fuck did I not notice this last night?!' You kicked yourself mentally, only for your mind to throw the fear you felt yesterday back at you.

"....(y/n)?" Penguin mumbled into your hair sleepily.

"..." You didn't respond and instead opted for hiding in his chest, feigning sleep.

Penguin sighed holding you tightly and kissed the top of your head softly. You felt heat spread from where he kissed you. Why did he kiss you? Did he feel sorry for you?

"(y/n), are you sleeping?" Penguin asked quietly. You didn't respond. You were scared he would leave you alone if you did. He took your silence as an affirmation.

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Penguin was roused from his comfortable slumber by your movement. He didn't want to wake up and let you go. Not yet. Pulling you tight against his chest he felt you move closer into him. You hadn't stopped wiggling though.

"....(y/n)?" He called wondering if you were comfortable against him. You snuggled a bit more into his chest and seemed to settle down again. Penguin took a calming breath releasing it in a content sigh and held you firmly placing a soft kiss on your head. Penguin hadn't even thought about it, the action had been done on instinct alone.

He let his eyes slowly open and took in your small form in his arms. All he could think about was how beautiful you were to him and how right it felt to have you in his arms.

"(Y/n), are you sleeping?" Penguin asked quietly. You didn't respond and he took that as an affirmation that you were still asleep. He relaxed a bit at the realization he wouldn't have to let go just yet.

'What is wrong with me?' He thought to himself. 'I shouldn't have these feelings for her. It will only hurt worse later on.'

Penguin continued on in his internal battle over you. One part of him wanted to lay claim to you and never let you go, while the other wanted to bury his heart away and encourage your nonexistent feelings for Law. Finally deciding to give you up feeling like he could never win your love, he also felt the need to tell you his feelings even if you would never know.

"(Y/n).... I will never hate you." Penguin began nervously. "I couldn't.... I think I've fallen in love with you. Your smile. Your soft laughter at my terrible jokes. Your dry banter and sarcastic nature. I love it all."

Penguin took a shaky breath to try and steal his nerves. He had felt you stiffen for a moment but other then that you hadn't moved so he continued on. "I know you're crushing on Law. I won't stand in yo-"