the boy on the bridge ✔️

~thank you~

edit: my emo self would love to keep this note as every word is meant from the bottom from of my (barely present) heart.  

p.s: bolded words in brackets is me mocking my old self- only i am allowed to do that okay, and making commentaries

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hey, guys. how are y'all doing? i hope all of you are doing good. i'm fine on my side, just permanently tired is all. (lol when am i not)

anyways me writing this note, instead of updating is to tell you guys how much i appreciate each and one of you. (you guys da best)

thank you for every single read and vote. you guys have no idea how much it means to me. (like seriously thank you tho. you guys make me wanna cry in a cool way)

(get ready for my sob story- i didnt make any of the stuff though, i still struggle but who doesnt) i have serious insecurity problems, so it was a pretty big deal for me to publish this story in the first place. to be honest, this is not my first story on wattpad (i think i've published like four stories before this???) i have written and published quite some stories here for some time now. however if you head to my profile, you'd be able to only find this single story in my works. like i said, because of me feeling insecure like all the time i could never bring myself to keep my stories posted for a long time and i always end up deleting them albeit the good reviews (the stories were bombass too and then my crazy ass even went and deleted the drafts like broooooooo whaiiiiiiiiiiiiii) and then it got to a point where i stopped writing altogether (oh le sad times)

i just always tend to overthink and second-guess myself. but then i met this really sweet, kind person who like helped me and make me see things in a way i've never seen before. that's when i decided to start writing again, and frankly it's one of the best decisions i've ever made. 

i've got to admit, it's hasn't been easy, writing this story and then deciding to publish it. like i've got no problem in the writing process or whatsoever- it's just bringing myself to actually write the words. it's kind of like sharing a bit of yourself, yanno.

i'm a secluded person, if you will- i like to keep to myself, and i just don't really express myself all that much. pretty ironic for a writer, i know- writing is all about expressing stuff, but whatever, that's how i roll i guess (i'm trying to open up more now though- like 0.001%, it's progress)

there's been quite some times where like i've wanted to stop writing or just delete this story. but i haven't. quite recently there's been a surge in the votes and comments in this story and you guys have no idea how much of a boosting factor it is. everytime i feel down or something, i see you guys' comments and it makes me so, so happy. (like jump over the moon, happy)

you make me wanna write more. you make me wanna complete this story (and i completed and am now editing, oh da proud feels) and it's like so nice to hear that you actually like this story and everything. (which i actually still find hard to believe hehe)

like thank you!!!

i really, really hope i get to finish writing this story, and i even more hope that you will stick till the end... (to my past self: you took a long-ass time but actually completed it, and a lot of people stuck till the very end, be proud)

once again, thank you for reading and voting and commenting.... (yes, thank you, thank you, thank youuuuuuuuuuu)

p.s: i dunno if what i'm trying to say is actually conveyed here, so lemme summarise it up to you. you guys are da best, so thank you! (no i'm not going to get tired of saying thank you, that's how grateful i am)

-also, as gratitude token, i'm gonna do something i've seen a lot of authors do. (oh yh, imma keep this posted too- i have to admit it was kind of fun doing that)

you guys are getting a chance to question the characters in the story, yay!!! (yo, this was like before kayh, sorry but no questions now)

josh

elliot

valerie

zach

josephine

any other characters 

or if you wanna ask me some questions that's cool too. 

questions will be accepted till: 3/8/19