I trip
I fall
The pain is immediate
But it fades away
But then
It returns
With a vengeance for me
It forms a large wound
I can't help
But rip it open
Rip open my scab
It's like a secret door
No matter what
I want to know what's behind it
But I know it's obvious
It's just the satisfaction
Ripping apart the lock
And opening up the door
Letting all the contents spill out
I will keep ripping open my scab wound
Let it heal
And rip it open again
Eventually it will heal over completely
But I can't have these padlocks on my body
I have no secrets
I leave no stone unturned
I leave no door unopened
And I let every gateway flow
Every itch will be itched
Even if it means pain and suffering
I'd rather have a feeling I know
A familiar feeling I can deal with
Rather than the
discomfort
The discomfort
When your body says yes
But your mind says no
It's just condemning your body to pain
And I swore
I swore
I fucking swore no more pain
So every scab I have
Is a healing one
That's only healing to be destroyed again
