Forever. I Promise (Sequel to As one. Always)

Chapter 5

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Loki’s head P.O.V

‘Do it.’ The voice commanded him. Loki watched as the girl-no, woman, she was a woman now- stared straight at him, her dark blue eyes slightly teary. ‘Do it now.’

He never thought it would come to this. The voice in his head had never steered him wrong. It had given him power, it had given him an army. It had promised him a throne. And he had gone along with it. He listened to it. It had proved to be trustworthy before.

But now…he wasn’t so sure. I don’t want to. He looked at Noelle, who told him to do it. Encouraged him to do it. He would finally be rid of what held him back from doing worse than he already had. ‘No more distractions.’ He could take over Asgard and not worry about fighting her. ‘No more pain.’ He would no longer feel the sickening sting of his broken heart, which yearned for her, and only her. ‘No more weakness.’ He would never feel weak in the knees for anyone again. And all it took was continuous pressure.

He watched her, speaking to him, and not really registering what she said. He was becoming distracted, and felt something stirring within him. It was rebellion. He felt a part of him fighting back, telling him to stop.

‘Do it.’ One side argued

Don’t. The other.

‘Do it.’

Don’t.

‘Do it NOW.’

Let her GO.

He looked down again at the beautiful woman he was going to kill. What do I do? What do I want to do? Did he even want this?

He watched her tears spill over. He watched the determination in her eyes. She was going to let him do it. She wasn’t going to fight him. And he didn’t want to do this. He could feel his will to do it seeping from him, before rising up again. ‘You will do it.’

I don’t want to.

‘Do it now. Don’t be so weak.’

He felt himself fighting against himself, his fingers closing around her neck. I don’t want to do this. I won’t do this. I can’t do this. He couldn’t kill her. Not her. Anyone else, but not her.

So he let go. As he removed his hands from her neck, he felt a stabbing pain in his head. Burning him up, he bit back a scream.

And then he felt free.

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Loki’s P.O.V

I watched as Noelle fell to the ground, coughing and sputtering. She had her hand to her throat, her eyes closed. I could see the bruises already forming, four long, slender digits on the right side of her throat and one on the left.

I felt myself slump against the wall and let it support my weight. I could feel my heart pounding in my chest, my head aching and my thoughts like mush. It was like I was under a sedative. My limbs felt heavy and clumsy. How could I have done this? I was a monster, a true monster. The one that hurt the ones they loved. I had never once wanted to hurt her. How could I have let myself become this?

I kept listening to her breathing, and when it was no longer erratic, and glanced up. Noelle was looking at me, her eyes wide. Fear was in them. Fear of me.