I don't know what I'm doing

so I think I might start crying

Uggh I'm sorry. I just need somewhere to rant and I'm literally just sitting alone at home.

I feel so stressed, anxious, annoyed, beaten down, disrespected, ignores, depressed, hopeless, numb.

I mean don't get me wrong I love my life and for the most part the people around me. But I feel I'm constantly putting on a facade of this fun happy, confident person. In some ways that is me, but I also have other emotions. I feel embarrassed to show them

I'm basically getting bullied and my theater. Thing is I'm the lead and the people bullying me are the smallest character in the entire show. If they didn't show up one night it would not matter a bit.

And I don't feel like I can say anything. I still have to be in a show with them for 2 more weeks, and possibly have to work with them again in the future. 

And I'm always terrified of being the hard to work with person. I don't know. I've just had a lot on my mind. No one is probably ever going to read this anyways. But if you are any advice other than the it gets better, or just be your self.  🤷🏼‍♀️