I don't know what I'm doing

Crushes, confessions, and dreams

So I had the strangest dream last night.

So I really only have 2 Friends. Ones a guy I've known since I believe 2nd or 3rd grade. And we are now seniors in highschool. We very close. My other friend is a girl I've known for almost 3 years I believe coming in a few weeks.

Anyways so the guy is extremely nice. But he's very the opposite of me. I'm loud, and crazy, and sometimes a little aggressive. I jump before I think, very out going, leader, type personality. He's a little more reserved. Hates big groups,  he's extremely nice though and is always afraid he hurt someone's feelings. Kinda sensitive or at least more than me.

I love him I really do. I think I'd die if something happened to him. I don't know if he feels the same but yeah.

So about, ohh I don't know, a few years after knowing him we both confessed we once had crushes in each other but not any more.

Skip forward a few years and now we are here. So he's had a crush on a girl for a while now and a few weeks ago they started dating.

Lately I've been feeling and extreme amount of jealousy.

And its really making question do I like him.

But what's confusing is I don't think I'm physically attracted to him.

Like the thought of kissing him makes me sick.  Nothing against him I just don't know if I could do it.

And all out friendship because we where so close people always assumed we liked each other and where NOT afraid to say it.

But anyways to my dream.

I had a dream that I was at a party with people I didn't really know. He was there though. To make a long story short we ended up watching a movie while cuddling. And I can't tell if it was a friendship cuddle or what?!?!

Someone please help. I don't want to ruin or friendship. I mean he has a girlfriend that he's had a crush on for a while.

Idk please help

Yours in demigodiishness and all peace 🍋