DESIRED (BWWM)

Not Much Has Changed

Renee's pov

Shawty!" Titanic calls me and I raise my eyebrows.
"Shawty? Really? Can we change that one? its not very imaginative and I don't like it," I say opening my eyes and looking at his smirking face.

"We're here," he says and I turn my head and smile when I see Mia's familiar house but grimace when I see the 'FOR SALE' sign on mines. The windows are boarded up and it looks nothing like it did a couple weeks ago. My lips tremble and I bite down on it to stop myself from crying.

"Give me your phone," Ty says snapping me out of my melancholy haze and I look down to see his open hands in front of me.

"Why?" I question skeptically, taking my phone out of my pocket and holding it protectively to my chest.
"So you can call me when you're ready," he says in a 'well duh' kind of tone and I roll my eyes and hand over the purple device. When its back in my hands, I quickly change his contact name from 'Titanic' to 'Ty'.

Smiling, I step out the car and head over to Mia's house, making it a point to ignore my house as I do.
"Bye Ty!" I shout as he reverses the car, he looks up and flips me the bird before driving away. I stick my tongue out before walking the rest of the way to Mia's house and standing by the door.

I chew on my lip and give the door a knock, waiting for someone to answer. A grin spreads across my face when Philip is the first one I see. "Hey pip!"

"RENÉE!" He yells, rushing into my arms and I laugh as I lift him up and place him on my hip before kissing his cheek. I reach over and adjust his hearing aids and he pouts his lips.

"I'm sorry. I yelled again didn't I?" He asks watching me with his puppy dog eyes. I kiss him on the forehead and shake my head.

He jumps out of my arms and runs back inside to alert everyone of my presence. Mia comes running down the stairs and throws herself in my arms.

I laugh as I hug her back.
"I missed you so much," she says hugging me tightly. "Mia, it's only been like two weeks," I say and she looks at me like I've sprouted two heads. "Yeah. Two long and very lonely weeks without my best friend"

I nod my head, agreeing with her as she takes my hands and drags me inside. Mrs Addi engulfs me in a warm hug the minute I'm in her reach. "How are you child?"
"I'm fine Mrs Addi," I say and she hits me lightly on my shoulder and rolls her eyes.

"How many times do I have to tell you to call me mom or Lacey?"

She ask and I kiss her cheeks. "Hey kiddo!" Mia's dad says, coming out of his study.
Her dad works as a highschool teacher.

"Hey Mr Addi,"  I grin, walking over to him and giving him a hug. "You're not too old for me to beat you girl. I told you to call me dad,"  he says and I nod my head when he releases me from his hold.

My eyes become watery as I look at the family that is not mine but yet still mine in every way.
Pip walks up to me and tugs on my shirt, letting me know he wants to come up. I lift him up and he wraps his arms around my neck.

"Don't cry Renée," he says and I kiss his adorable cheeks.
"I'm not crying. There's uh-...um dust particles in the air," I say as firmly as I can; not wanting my voice to break.

"Okay, okay. Enough of the depressing nonsense. Ren and I need to do some serious girl talking,"

Mia announces, grabbing my arm and dragging me to her room.
"Okay. How does Tofu lasagna  sound!" Mrs Addi shouts at us before we make it up the stairs.

"Sounds delicious Mrs...I mean mom," I say and a beautiful smile forms on her face when I use the endearment. When we're in her room Mia leads me to her bed and we both sit.
"Okay talk," she says and I bite my lip nervously, suddenly feeling very hot.

"Hey nice lamp, is that new?" I say pointing to the pineapple lamp I got her for Christmas, she folds her arms and gives me an unimpressed look. I sigh and bite on the side of my thumb finger.

"What do you want to know?"
"Everything. How are you? Is your mom still a bitch? You know, just talk to me,"
I take a deep breath to calm my irrational fears as I prepare to spill the beans.

"My room is huge and the penthouse is even more huge. Most of the time I don't even know what to do with myself, I've started talking to the pictures on the wall like Anna," I say making her laugh before continuing.

"My mother well...I don't see her much, so I guess nothings changed there. Most days she's out and when she does come home she's recovering from a hang over or completely wasted," I say shrugging my shoulders. My mother being drunk or passed out is something I've become accustomed to.

"What about Elijah?" She asks and my eyes widen. I fill my cheeks with air as I try to sort through my muddied feelings towards Elijah.

"Elijah is scary and dangerous, and when he gets angry he's downright terrifying. And he's a bad person Mia, he does bad things. Illegal things, but-" I stop my sentence short and shake my head.
"But what?" Mia asks and I shake my head.

"If you don't start talking right now, I'm hitting you in the head with a pillow," she says and for safety measures, I pull my own pillow into my hands so I'll at least be able to defend myself.

Mia notices and a smile forms on her face.
"Talk Renée. But what?" She asks and I sigh before answering her.

"But he's also really funny and kind of sweet and even though I push his buttons every chance I get, he doesn't do anything about it. Maybe he's not that bad. What if everything we hear on the news is just.....not true," I say and she looks at me for awhile before speaking.

"You can't make excuses for horrible people Ren, just like you can't put a flower in an asshole and call it a vase," she says slowly, trying to make me understand what she's trying to say.

"I know that," I answer.
"Its just that.....whatever, you're right," I say and she purses her lip, looking at me with raised eyebrows. I give her my best toothy grin making her laugh.

"You look tired," she says frowning at me and I roll my eyes. Even though I'm technically older, Mia is the one who's always worried. "Yeah I haven't been sleeping"
"Nightmares?" I nod my head and she pulls me into her arms for a hug.

"Want to take a quick nap?" she questions and I shake my head and push her shoulders lightly.
"Are you crazy? And miss spending time with my very best friend in the whole entire universe?"

I say and she rolls her eyes, "The only reason I'm your very best friend in the whole entire universe is because no one else puts up with your crazy ass," she says and I gasp, dramatically putting my hand to my chest and pouting my lips.

"That hurts Mia, that hurts right here," I say and she hits me in the head with the damn pillow.
"Hey!" I shout rubbing my head even though it doesn't hurt.
"That was uncalled for," I mutter grumpily as pip makes his way into the room and climbs up into my lap, making himself comfortable.

I kiss him on the head and his cheeks become red.

"So school starts back in a few weeks," Mia says and I nod my head. We both attend a private school and the semester always starts in February. When my dad died my mother could no longer pay for my tuition but Mr and Mrs Addi volunteered to pay for me and never once complained

"Do you think your mom will make you change schools so close to graduation?" She questions and I shake my head and roll my eyes.

"She can't do that. She's not paying for it so she can't just take me out." I reply shrugging my shoulders. My mother doesn't even attend parent meetings, she hasn't cared about me in a long while so why would she start now.

I run my hands through pips hair trying not to dwell on negative thoughts.
"Well if she tries to I'm definitely punching her in the face and ain't nothing you can do to stop me"

I laugh out loud at the mental image and I even snort a little, which makes us both laugh.
Pip soon gets tired of our laughter and leaves us alone.

"Girls lunch is ready!"
Mrs Addi calls from down stairs and Mia and I both smile.
"Race Yuh!" She shouts, running out the room and I smile before running after her, feeling happier than I have in days.

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