How sad a life must be when you are finally happy(or at least your will to live is back) after years, and you're motivated but then
1. you got nobody to share it with and
2. your anxiety is too big to even show people what makes you happy because being afraid you lose the love for it. When you feeling
happy and sad at the same time ,it only takes a positive and jolly mindset to overcome fear, anxiety and over-excitedness. You know by constantly repeating this you gonna jinx yourself and it's all gonna come crashing down When you finally feeling happy but you have this deep feeling that it's not gonna last for so long , and whenever you get to have the time of your life you all of sudden get nervous about it you're actually smiling but you've got tears in your eyes. They say what goes up must go down and you have this feeling of the rain is coming your way , you just don't wanna come down again.
