My Blackbirds

Thirteen

_The fifth chapter _
~ Birds come and go ~

I am thirteen at this age I was more mature than I was previously

I loved quite songs and I loved kiwi my secret blackbird but the other birds never left too

I loved my parents and I loved my best friend but we still arguing much and she never apologized

At this age I loved my childhood which I thought it wasn't gone as I played with kiwi very much

One weekend I was in my room doing nothing just staring at my opened pink curtains

" My sunshine come here" I heard my father saying
" I am coming " I replied

My father usually called me sunshine I love when he calls me this too I really feel I'm just a kid with him not a teenager

I went downstairs

" Guess what ! we are going to the cinema today! "
He was very pleased as I was

" Really wow let's go now! " I cried

" No, after lunch that's mama's condition! "

" Well let's eat lunch now! "

" I think you're right ! "

After lunch my motger wore a black dress and my father wore a grey suit and about me I just wore a tall white dress

We sat in the car and moved on I was looking through the transparent window as my mother did

Suddenly a black bird entered the car from my window and landed on my father's shoulder

He didn't comment

And suddenly my mother asked my father to stop the car..

" What's wrong dear ? " asked my father

" I just want to buy some bread from that supermarket "

And she pointed on a supermarket on the opposite side of the street

" Ok, I'll be right back " He said opening the car's door

" And I want a lollipop " I said
" Of course my sunshine " He said happily

When he was just infront of the car the blackbird was on his right shoulder it wasn't kiwi it was another blackbird

I stared at my father crossing the street wondering why is the blackbird on his shoulder

I was just staring and suddenly a van came quickly and hit my father and crashed his whole body..

I was moveless as I was shocked and the only thing I thought about was

" Will my father see his sunshine again? "

I quietly remember that grey suit with blood all over and I remember my mother's scream before she runs quickly to my father's body

And I remember the blackbird flying and landing suddenly on my knee in the car

After moments I ran to my father I saw him and I clearly remember his bloody face and I remember my mother calling ambulance

And when ambulance arrived they took my father to the hospital and I was sitting with my mother in the ambulance's car beside my father

When we arrived to the hospital my father was taken to a big room full of my father's bloody smell

After a while waiting the doctor asked to make a surgery at the moment many things happend that I didn't understand when I was shocked

All I remember is the doctor coming out at six and half saying

" I am very sorry, but we did our best " Then he walked away !

I saw the blackbird standing on the doctor's shoulder then it flew as her wings touched the roof then landed on my shoulder

I was weeping loudly I looked at the blackbird standing on my shoulder and I started to cry, again

It was a very bad day I was very angry and speechless, just crying

My mother drove me back home and the blackbird didn't leave me I was crying all the way home

I kept scratching my little nose over and over again

My mother asked our neighbor to take care of me till she comes back home

When she came I didn't welcome her I just ran to my room and remained silent for a long time

Just checking my blackbirds and what brought my attention that kiwi wasn't between the blackbirds !

But the birds were three at the sky, as usual
And the blackbird was here all day remained in my room with me

At this day I knew my childhood was over but I wasn't upset for losing my childhood that much

I think I'm big to understand this now !
But where is kiwi ?
And where is my father tho ?

I miss him so much..
I remember him calling me sunshine

So I picked up a yellow marker and drew a yellow heart on the blackbird's wing

I knew what will I name it !

" Sunshine, this bird saw everything happened today and it deserves to be named as my father last word, sunshine "