My Blackbirds

Sixteen

_ The sixth chapter _
~ Coco ~

It was the day before I will turn to be sixteen but first let me tell you about that past year

A new blackbird showed a lot at school and sunshine stopped disappeared just like kiwi did

That happened when I got over my father
And that when I started realizing that was big problem in my life and I solved it

And I also remember that kiwi disappeared when I got over my childhood and started being an adult

But I still have many secrets that my mother doesn't know and I still have no friends and I apologize for little, little things

I got a boyfriend last year but he didn't last much I think it was because I apologized too

My new poor high school was actually curious

The headmaster who was supposed to be controling was the weakest

Once I saw him begging an old teacher to stay because he can't afford to give her more money

And about those teachers who you predicted they're controling, you just don't know much

Students bullies teachers at class!!

That we almost didn't learn anything from teachers but heard them crying!!

It was wierd..very wierd

I started getting along with a new girl but this time I decided I will never apologize

For mum she was always at the kitchen or in her room working .
And for me I was always sitting in my room and staring at my blackbirds.

Showcasing their talents through the clouds
Through my little pink curtains..

And me scratching my little nose behind
Only three blackbirds which belong to me are left . Yes, from who belongs to me

Who knows maybe there are blackbirds who belongs to someone else

But however the most curious thing was my mother. She was always silent in her office

I always felt lonely because I scarcely talk to her that we became more like strangers
And I'm always scared to tell her anything

At my sixteenth birthday I went to school finding a small girl yelling loudly in front of the school's gate

On her left it was her mother standing not caring for her and I wondered why me, this small child and many many of others

Are just living with their unloving parents quietly like we are non important at all

But what shall we do?
Nothing, I think that's what shall we do

So I remained silent and looked at the sky
I watched my blackbirds showcasing their talents then scratched my little nose

After school I was so disappointed no one remembered my birthday, and if no one did I didn't ever imagine my mother will

I rode my bike and went home
As soon as I opened the door I saw my mother standing

A small cake on her left hand and a big balloon on her right hand

" Happy birthday sweetie " she said
Tears were almost falling from my eyes but I helped it and interrupted their way to my cheeks

That day passed quickly ,it was an awesome one

At night I layed in my bed and stared at my little closed pink curtains

I saw that blackbird behind my curtains
It was hiding ..

It was scared actually as same as I felt

I caught it then picked up a pink marker and drew a heart on its little wing

“ What shall I name you ? " I wondered

“ I will eat all the coconuts if you didn't come quickly " My mother shouted in a loud voice from downstairs

“ Here it is ! Coco "