raven's song {chris motionless}

fifteen • polygraph eyes

Chris's POV

I regret so many things. Raven should've known about Sabrina. I shouldn't have acted affectionate towards her. It's so hard when I love her, though. Raven's always been the one I love.

"I'm gonna miss you," Sabrina said.

I nodded. "I know. But, Sabrina ... we need to talk."

Her face brightened. "Ooh, Chris, I think I know what you want to talk about!"

I narrowed my eyes for a moment, but it finally registered. She wants me to propose?!

"Well, it's not that," I told her slowly.

Her face fell. "Oh."

"Sabrina, I feel like we've been drifting apart lately, and-"

"It's because of that Raven chick! She's trying to steal you from me! I knew she'd manipulate you, I knew it!" She yells.

"No, Sabrina! I'm breaking up with you because I know that you don't love me anymore. We don't love each other anymore!" I yelled back. "Raven has nothing to do with this!"

She scowled and a couple of tears fell down her face. "Well then. I'll pack my stuff and be on my way before you leave for tour."

"I'm sorry, Sabrina. You'll find someone else."

She shook her head. "I'm going to start packing."

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I lugged my last suitcase onto the tour bus. Raven and Ricky were already on it. I attempted to give Raven a smile, but she ignored it. I understand why.

I'm not going to tell them Sabrina and I  split - not yet, at least. I just felt like going to my bunk and staying there until our first show.

I sat in my bunk, scrolling through Instagram on my phone. I saw that Devin had just posted something 27 seconds ago. It was a picture of him and Raven, captioned so excited to have her on tour with us! @/ravenirisbell.

I sighed and turned off my phone. Why didn't she realize that I was in love with her? Why didn't she see that before she left me? People were right when they called us soulmates, why didn't she see it then?

I believe in fate. I believe that fate led her back to me for a reason. I don't know if it was to make her mine, or to go through a shit-ton of pain, but she's here with us for a reason.

I climbed out of my bunk and walked into the living room. Everyone was on the bus now, except for our roadies, Shawn, Vince, Bryce, Connor, and AJ.

My whole body tensed when I saw Raven leaning into Ricky's side, staring at something on his phone, giggling. I knew it wasn't affectionate, but that should be me.

"Oh, hi Chris!" Devin said when he saw me.

"Hi," I murmured, walking towards the fridge. I got out the things to make myself a sandwich.

"Can you make me one?" Raven asked.

"Y-yeah," I stuttered. So now she was talking to me?

I made her favorite sandwich, the one that she's always eaten ever since we were six years old. No vegetables, just chicken, mayo, and mozzarella cheese, microwaved. It was actually kind of good.

She grinned when I handed it back to her. "You remember my favorite sandwich?"

I nodded, taking a bite of mine.

"Favorite color?" She asked.

"Purple. But it has to be dark purple or very light purple, no inbetween."

"Favorite place to go in Scranton?"

"That one old pizza place! Damnit, I forgot the name of it."

She laughed. "I did, too."

"Okay, my turn for the questions. What's the first poster I got?"

"Bleeding Through," she replied, as if it were the easiest question ever.

"First record?"

"The Misfits, but I forgot the name of the record," she said. "Okay, I have one; where's the place we met?"

"Saw Mill Park. I was seven and you were six, all alone on a swing."

She snickered and then burst out laughing. "You asked if I was a bird!"

"No, I asked if your name was Raven like the bird," I corrected her.

The guys all started laughing at that one, and I remembered they were still here. It was like Raven and I were the only people in the room.

"I'm surprised you remember all that," she commented.

"Of course I do! You were my best friend for over ten years," I remind her.

Her smile fell. "Yeah, I was."

So my life is pretty boring, how about yours?
     - salem ♡

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