Captivated

Chapter 1

Lily POV

Nakaupo ako ngayon sa isang coffee shop at naghihintay sa aking kaibigan. Habang nagbabasa ako ng isang aklat ay may nahagip akong isang lalaking pumasok dito sa coffee shop.

I was stunned for a moment. Simple lang ang suot nitong damit pero tila ba tumitinkad ang kaputian nito.

"Lily!". Napalingon agad ako sa tumawag sa akin. Si Penny nandito na pala. Tumayo ako at nakipagbeso sakanya.

"It's been a year, Pen" nakangiting sabi ko sakanya. She just smiled. I know she's happy now with her husband, Marco.

"Yeah. Ikaw kumusta kana? May lalaki na ba ulit ang nagpatibok sa puso mo?". She asked. Nawala yung ngiti ko sandali dahil sa tanong niya. "I'm sorry for asking you that que--"

"It's okay. I've been fine now so don't apologize if you asked me that question. Naka-move on na ako. I was totally lose myself because I fight for stupid love and stupid man" sabi ko. Biglang pumasok lahat sa isipan ko na tila ba flashback ang imahe ni Zane. He's my first love. I've been totally crazy for loving that man but that man broke my heart.

Nangako ako sa sarili ko na ayaw ko ng umibig pa if ganiyan lang din ang mangyayari. I don't want to look loser or anything because of love. I learn everything and I learn something that if you a still hold on, you will suffer a lot of heartbreaks because of love. Just let go, if love hurts you more.

"May nabalitaan ako tungkol kay Zane" panimula ni Penny. I've been searching all places just to find him when he left me with no reason. What really happened to him?.

I want know. I want know what he's reason for him to leave me. Why I suffer a lot? The pain he bring to me is still here.

"Anong nabalitaan mo?". I asked her with curiosity.

"He's crazy. Nabalitaan kung nabaliw ito sa problema. Do you want him to visit?"

What? He's crazy that's why he leave me.

"...then the doctor said that he is psycho. He even tell him the doctor that he leave the girl he loved because he doesn't want her to be hurt physically"

All these years, I managed to burst my anger to him knowing he's situation.  I never know the real story why he leave me behind. But why he can't tell me his condition? May magagawa pa akong paraan to make him cure.

"All these years, I burst my anger to he's picture in my wall. I kill him inside my head for breaking my heart. But I don't even rights to accuse him not knowing he's real story. I was too harsh. He even have care for me while I'm here throwing him bad words"

Penny hugged me. "It's okay. You have no idea where he goes when he left you. Mapaglaro ang tadhana, Lily and I'm wishing you for you to meet a man who is willing to spend the rest of your life"

I was over for him. I was really over. Unuwi ako sa bahay na tila ba wala sa sarili. I was too much. I wanted him to make him stay but he left me. And now he's suffering from mental illness and their are revelation why he left me. I'm sorry, Zane. I was over. Our love is really over. Hoping that you'll get better soon. I'm hoping for that.

May kinuha ako sa drawer ko at may nakita ako isang nakatuping papel. With curiosity, I open it. This is the letter, Zane wrote before he left me.

December 16, 2013,

Dear Darling,

I love you more than anything else. Please forgive me. I don't want to broke your heart. I will fix everything and I will marry you. I promise you for that. Te quiero, Darling.

Fix everything?. Anong dapat niyang ayusin? Nakita ko ang isang litrato doon sa loob. It was Zane and---- Jennifer.

I know her. She's the ex-girlfriend of Zane. Nakikita dito na masaya sila. So what the connection between them? Is Zane cheating on me while he's in relationship?

May isang ring akong nadukot ulit sa loob ng envelope. Nakatatak ang isang pangalan na hindi ko na makita.

Napagitla ako when someone is calling me.

(Unknown...)

"Hello"

"I've been inlove with you. I have a reason to stay with you but I can't. The other things hunt me everyday. I'm sorry, Darling. I love you"

Hindi ko mapigilang tumulo ang mga butil ng luha sa aking mga mata nang marinig ko ulit ang kanyang boses. Bakit ba ganito ang epekto mo? Bakit ba Zane? Bakit may puwang ka parin sa puso ko even though you hurt me?

Para hindi na ako masaktan pa, lalayo ako ulit to forget you. I still remember all the memories we spent because I can't get over even I'm still remembering myself to forget you. My heart still want you. You. Only you, Darling.

I want to feel your hand wrapped in my waist. Put your chin in my shoulder. While watching the sunset goes down.

You are my darling. You are my everything. You are my daylight. I still haven't yet over. I'm still longing for you to comeback. When? Where? Kailan ako maghihintay para bumalik ka? Kailan ako aasa ulit na may pag-asa pang magkaayos tayo? Kailan pa ako maghihintay na bumalik ka para ipagpatuloy natin ang ating pagmamahalan na nagwakas?

Ikaw ang rason kung bakit ayaw kong tapusin ang aking kwento. I need to find some way to ended it up. You're my light for every chapter. You are my book and I'm your pen. I will write all my thoughts of how much I love you.

For now, I will find myself and bring it back. Pupunta akong Germany to get my mind free from the memories and heartbreaks. Hahanapin ko ang sarili ko na nalunod dahil sa pag-ibig. Minsan magmumukha kang tanga because of love.

Love will give you happiness, heartbreaks and regrets.

I will wait for you, Darling. I will be here, my love.

A/n
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