I sit there and I think.
Why does this always happen to me?
Why do I always get hurt?
Is it because I dont raise to your expectations that you turn your head away from me?
Is it because I'm not like the other girls who dont go everywhere you go?
Is it because I wont let you touch me?
"I just want words" , I say when I sit in the chair.
I stay in on the chair , numb.
Not feeling anything.
Just staring into space when i could be laughing.
But in reality nothing makes me truly happy.
I just feel completely empty as a cave.
Just cold , not moving.
Just staying in one place not moving.
Just whispering not talking.
And I plan to keep it that way.
My frustrations make want to scream and punch a wall.
But wouldn't that he like hitting a person?
Wouldn't that mean harming myself?
All of this is just Unexplainable.
