When You're Ready

~The Subtle Temptation~

Shawn's P.O.V.

I never knew that one day of being with Camila and shooting all possible sexy and intimate scenes with her could cause me a migraine and less sleep the following day. I thought I would be able to handle everything just fine so I was really excited to be with her yesterday, I got up early and made sure to get to the shooting site and prepared myself mentally for what was about to happen.

Then, I really wasn't able to handle myself at all. I lost my mind the moment that I realized that our first scene was actually the dance. At first I was still calm, I was getting excited to do the dance with her since this is the first time I would try it out and be with her firs the first time. However when I saw the lightings especially when I saw Camila wearing that deep v long white gown and that messy hair seemingly looking like a goddess... my mind started having different thoughts that I really should have.

I was turned on.

I repeated turned on in we very scene we got to do, I felt like I was losing myself every time she gets close to me, every time pur faces were just a centimeter apart, our breaths almost close with each other and all. My heart was thumping so fast because of the love I have for her, I was so vulnerable to the point that when our lips touched for the first time, I started to think about different ways on how to profess my love for her.

That kiss, although was super fast and slight, it meant so much for me. That kiss what the main reason why I didn't have the time to properly sleep last night, there were so many thoughts running in my head, all the scenes that we did repeatedly kept running in my head. The small readings, the make out sessions and even that kiss... that kiss was the main reason why I feel like I just had a bad hungover today.

Thoughts of Camila and I being together, laying on bed, doing couply things and so on... those were the thoughts that didn't let me sleep thought the night. What scares me is that I've actually dremt of her, of us making out, kissing each other and doing all the things we did yesterday. The bed scene and all possible things that could make me not sleep at all.. I was dreaming of her in an explicit way and I couldn't stop myself, my thoughts from having those thoughts...

This is all wrong I know, I tried telling it to myself more and more however I kept reminding myself that she's also the one I love... The attraction I felt for her is already drowning me, she might not know it but she already got me wrapped around her finger...

"Wake up lazy head, you're almost running late for the shoot if you still won't sit up and head to the bathroom" Andrew started tapping me on my shoulder just to wake me up, my eyelids still felt so heavy but with his words I decided that I needed to wake up now.

"Geez, what time is it? I didn't have a proper sleep at all"

"Who do you blame then? Camila?" His chuckle caused me to open my eyes even though it hurts and threw him a glare, obviously he's teasing me since he know every well what kind of effect Camila has on me.

"You know its actually funny seeing you waking up so early and got so excited yesterday in doing the shoot but to see you almost not getting that proper sleep you have last night and then waking up this late..."

"Camila really has that kind of effect on you does she? She can almost control you!" He added, completely insensitive to my blushing self since partially all of his words were true  and I don't like the fact that he got it true...

"Will you just please shut up? I'm going to head to the bathroom now but please just stay quiet"

"I love seeing you like this, you didn't drink but you looked like you had a bad hungover because of the woman you're in love with. I'll zip my mouth now but please do get in the shower so we can head to the site right away"