My Life

LIFE IS SO CONFUSING

So I got tired of my dad griping all the time about how lazy and terrible my boyfriend is. I even started to believe him too. 

He wouldn't buy a bus pass for us to hang out since he cant drive little did I know he hasn't gotten money yet and all this other stuff. 

Yesterday I broke up with him and before I could explain he walked away angrily (this was after school BTW). I was walking away crying and was having a minor panic attack. I was hyperventilating, I was crying, and I was shaking so badly. I tried to call my friend but I started to talk to him and he accidentally hung up. Then Anthony called and he said "your just gonna leave me like that." I was screaming and saying "you didn't give me time to explain.". We then walked home together talking about all this. I started crying and so did he my dad was happy at least. Yesterday I barely talked to my dad or brothers at all I was so depressed. So today I got back together with him. I know you probably think I am stupid but I don't care. He said he will get his act together and actually try to get money. If he doesn't then its over again and he knows that too. I just really missed him and I really like him I just won't tell my dad he doesn't have to know.

I am really happy I am back with him he is the best even though he is dumb every once in a while. I just really hope it works out this time. My dad said if it didn't work out the first time its not gonna work out all the rest of the times.

The thing is I broke up with him because of what my dad was saying not by what I felt. I am so stupid at least my dad will stop yelling at me because of him. Bad news is all our couple pictures are gone and I changed his ringtone to the rest of my friends ringtone. Can't let my dad be suspicious. I just hope once Anthony gets his act together more and my dad see's that he will like him and let me be with him again.

Missed You All

Kat (name I am obsessed with)