Spideychelle one-shots

Secrets

"What would you say," Peter said, fiddling with MJ's fingers, "if I told you I had a secret?"

"I guess I'd ask what kind of secret," she said, smiling up at him, her head in his lap.

They had been dating for over a month now, and Peter still hadn't told her that he was Spiderman.

They had been dating for over a month now, and he still wasn't sure how she would react.

It had been great, of course it had - at least, after the first awkward date, after Peter had stammered his way through asking her out and after they had gotten past  meeting the parents and telling their friend group (which was honestly just Ned) and once they had found a rhythm with each other.

But Peter felt bad keeping such a large part of his life from her. Spiderman, Mr. Stark - she was suspicious about the Stark Internship, he could tell. Not because she didn't trust him but because she was curious and she cared about him and she wondered why he sometimes showed up to school with cuts and bruises that he couldn't explain away.

He leaned back on his hand, careful not to crumple their carefully finished homework.

"It's the kind of secret," he said carefully, "That could change everything. I... haven't told many people. Aunt May knows, of course."

"And Ned?"

Peter paused for a moment, honestly not sure how to answer.

"I'm not gonna be upset if you say yes," MJ said quickly. "I understand that there are some things you're gonna tell him first. I was just wondering."

"Then... yes, Ned knows. But I didn't actually tell him - he found out."

"Huh," she says, biting her lip. "Think I could figure it out?"

"Maybe," Peter said teasingly. "You are the smartest person in this whole school... except for me of course."

"Of course," she says, a teasing glint in her eye. "How could I ever forget."

He leans down, tangling his fingers in her hair as he kisses her, softly, and thinks about how he can't remember a time when he's been happier.

"But seriously," she says, her eyes wide. "You know that you can tell me anything, right?"

"Yeah, of course," he says, tucking a piece of hair behind her ear. "I just... don't want you to see me differently. I don't want this to change things between us."

MJ sat up, turning and facing him. "Peter, you know that nothing could change the way I love you, right? I - I mean..."

She stutters, trailing to a halt as she realizes what she's just said. Peter's frozen, too, his heart galloping in his chest as he takes in her words.

She loves him.

Sure, he knew that, kind of, but it wasn't like they'd said it yet. And Peter loved her, he known it for weeks, he was just... gathering up the courage to tell her.

Apparently she'd beaten him to it.

"I love you too," he says, his breath catching in his throat. "But, I need to - I need to tell you first, okay?"

She reaches up, cupping his face with her hand and smiling up at him, her eyes full of love. "Okay."

"MJ, I - " The words seemed to stick in his throat. Call him a coward, but he couldn't bear it if this changed the way she looked at him.

But he had to. "I'm Spiderman," he said, his words slightly garbled in his rush to get them out.

"You - what?"

"I'm Spiderman, MJ," he said weakly, not meeting her eyes.

"You're joking, right?" she said. "This is some kind of trick? Oh my god, Peter, are you being serious?"

He nodded mutely, his throat constricted from all the things he didn't know how to say.

"So, all the youtube videos - those were you? And - and - Peter, how are you not dead right now?"

"Well, that's kinda the point of the powers... and the suit," he said.

"No, I mean - you said May knows? I assume she wasn't exactly happy when she found out..."

Peter winced. "That's a bit of an understatement," he admitted.

MJ paused, her eyes slowly meeting his. He saw the worry in her gaze, the millions of questions that he knew he would have to answer.

She took a deep breath and let it out slowly. "Thank you for telling me," she said, leaning her head on his shoulder. "It really means a lot that you would trust me this."

"I love you, remember?" he said, his arm going around her. "Are you really okay with this?"

"Of course," she said. "You're out saving people, Peter, that's incredible! I mean, I'm going to be worried about you, of course, I am, but... I'm honestly not that surprised."

"Really?" he asked, looking down at her.

"Well, yeah. I mean, I always knew you were going to change the world. That's just who you were. You're such a kind and giving person... of course you would want to help people." She wrapped an arm around his waist, leaning in closer. "I'm proud of you."

Peter smiled, pressing a kiss to the top of her head. "You're the best, did you know that?"

"Of course," she said, and he could feel her smiling into his shoulder.

He sighed, feeling a weight lift off of his shoulders. He'd kept this secret from her for so long, that he'd forgotten what it was like just to have it all out in the open between them. And, because he had such a wonderful and amazing girlfriend, she wasn't even mad at him.

From now on no more secrets, he decided, burying his face in her hair. They weren't worth the chance of losing her.

No more secrets.

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