S.E.A.L IV: All I Need

Chapter 48

~Nia~

I decided to take Jay's advice and apologize to Kadence and Tricia for how I treated them a few months ago. I knew it was wrong to say what I said to Kadence but I wasn't in my right mind set and she was pissing me off so I retaliated against her when all she was trying to do was be there for me. I was waiting for them to pull up to the coffee shop so we could talk. I figured a neutral space that way neither of us could go off on one another at. They were supposed to be here like15 minutes ago and they still weren't here. I started to panic a little thinking that maybe they wouldn't come after all. They looked around the coffee shop before spotting me at that the table and walking over to me. I don't know why I was so nervous but as soon as they approached the table.

"I am sorry" I blurted out before they could say anything to me. Kadence and Tricia, I am so sorry, I should have never come at you two that way. Kadence sucked her teeth and looked me up and down for a moment. And Tricia just shook her head. I am sorry please say something. It's cool we know you weren't in the right mind set and going through something. It wasn't cool, I was wrong for what I said to you Kadence. I was so wrong, that was something that Charli had confided to me in private and I wasn't even sure that it was completely true. I should have never said it. I talked to him, it's true she said taking a seat at the table. He was completely honest with me about it. Everyone knew she was pregnant but they could never figure out who the father was because as we all know she opened her legs to everyone. I was pissed at him, because he sat there for 15 years and said nothing. Not one word, but I also couldn't be too mad because it happened before we got together. Is he in contact with Danielle now? Oh, hell no, we're going through the courts, I refuse to deal with her, cause I will kill her ass and that's on both of my children. Girl don't put on that your children. I am not playing I am not dealing with her shit. I'll be adult enough to support Carlos in an effort of getting to know his daughter, but I will not deal with her bitch-ass mama. I don't doubt that Kadence wouldn't kill Danielle, she's threatened to do it before and I knew she was crazy if not crazier than I am.

I am sorry K. I shouldn't have done that thought. Why are you sorry, you didn't stick his dick in her? Really Kadence can we be adults, were in public Tricia said shaking her head. It's the truth. She wasn't apologizing for that; she's talking about what she said to you. Oh that. Yeah it hurt that you would come at me like that when I was just trying to help you, I saw how Charli dogged you out. I was there for you through it all. I know Thank you for loving me through that. Yeah well it wouldn't have been appropriate to slap the West Indian out of you at that time. I know you meant that with love. Maybe, but let me tell you, if you ever say "Fuck you" to me again, you better mean it in a threesome sense. Oh my god Tricia said covering her face cause Kadence said it loud as hell. First of all, you said that to me and secondly you cute, but you ain't my type; I only like hot dogs and not tacos. Bitch I know that, I am the same way, I am just letting you know we too old for the disrespect. We grown ass women with kids now. You forgive me! If I didn't would I have shown up she said opening her arms for me to give her a hug. I am sorry I said to her as we embraced. It's ok girl we been through way worse than this, it's water under the bridge. That's what I am talking about Tricia said joining the hug. I am sorry to you too Tricia you were just caught in the middle of it. I know and I held my tongue and my hand from knocking some sense back into you as well. I probably could have used it I said looking at my two best friends it would have kept from all the heart ache.

Where you been for the last few months though, I tried to come back and check on you but you weren't ever home T said as we finally settled in at the table. He didn't tell yall? Who didn't us what they said raising an eyebrow at me? I was in a mental facility for about 3 months. Come again! Charli committed me. This mother fu.... No No it's not what you think. He was right for doing it. How in the hell was he right for committing you Nia? When I tell yall I was at a low point, I was at a dangerously low point. I told him that I wanted to kill him, and then after I killed him, I'd kill myself so we wouldn't have to deal with all the other shit. They both looked at me and didn't say anything. I know what you're thinking and I am not crazy. I just...I was off my medication. Actually, I'd been off the medication for a while, ever since I'd found out I was pregnant with Charleigh. You take medication like that, Kadence said looking at me? Yes, I do, you knew about it I just didn't tell you exactly what it was for. I am manic depressant; I am not as bad as my mom and as long as I take the medication, I am good and I don't have the dramatic lows that I use to face.