Until Dawn (My Story)

Chapter 2: After A Year Part 1

Asia's P.O.V.

I took in a deep breath as I walked to Josh's room. He's been in there ever since he told us to get our stuff ready to leave to go to the cabin. It's been a year since Hannah and Beth's death and Josh wants to get everyone back to the cabin for the anniversary of that day. I think its sweet, but he hasn't been doing well this past year. He suffers from major depression. He shuts himself away from everyone. The only one he let's in anymore is me. I don't know why but I feel like I'm the only one who can keep him calm. I've missed them too, but I'm more worried about Josh. He's just not himself anymore. He still doesn't know I have feelings for him. I just felt as though if I told him it would add more pressure onto what he's already dealing with. And I love him too much to do that to him. As I walked into Josh's room, I saw him sitting on the edge of his bed with his elbows on his knees and hands in his hair. I walked over to Josh. I looked at him with a saddened look in my eyes as I knelt down in front of him. I took his hand in mine moving it down. My finger gently touched his ring on his middle finger. The ring I bought him last year for Christmas. I'm honestly surprised he's still wearing it. It has silver band. I had it engraved to say: "You are braver than you believe, Stronger than you seem, and Smarter than you think." I bought it for him after the death of his sisters. I wanted him to know I had his back and always would. And that no matter what problem he has, he can always overcome it.
"Josh, dear, -"

He said nothing as he continued to stare at the floor.
"Hey, Josh,-"

I lightly touched his cheek with my finger.
"Josh, -"

He looked in my direction. His eyes filled with despair. I held his hand a little tighter in mine.
"What's on your mind hon?" I asked him softly.
"Its just - going back to the cabin after Hannah and Beth's disappearance its - it's just-"

I used my other hand to take his other hand, holding them both gently but tightly.
"Its going to be hard to go back there, I know, but you know what -"

He tried looking away from me. I stood and sat next to him. I gently turned his face to look at me. I still held his hands as I looked at him.
"I'm here for you, with you, every step of the way. I would and will never leave your side - okay,"

Josh said nothing for a moment as he looked at me. At this moment right now I wanted to tell him I loved him. To let him know that no matter what I will always be with him, but I felt it would add to his problems.
"Thank you Asia, for everything," Josh said to me softly.

I lightly ran my finger through his hair.
"Anytime, chipmunk,"

He smiled at me as he leaned over, wrapping his arms around me to hug me. I held him tightly in my arms, before we leaned back from one another.
"Well, Firefly, are you ready for a crazy a** weekend?" Josh asked me with a slight smile standing from the bed.
"Yes, -"

I stood from the bed.
"But you have to promise me no drinking," I said to him.

He put his hands up in surrender.
"I promise, I'm not bringing any alchohol this time," Josh stated.
I smiled, "Good," I said as I lightly touched my finger to his chest.

He laughed slightly as we walked out of the room together. I know that Josh tries to pretend that everything is okay with him but I know it's not. A lot of the time he doesn't want to talk about it, which is the main part of his problem. The only one he relies on is me. Which is better than nothing, but he still doesn't let out everything.

. . .

We stood in the living room watching Josh as he recorded a video for our other friends. I couldn't help but to stare at his cuteness as he tried to get ready.
"Well, hello friends and fans - alright let's do that again -"