it was y/ns first day at UA high. the school for upcoming heroes. most students would be ecstatic, but not our little y/n, oh no no no. ever since she was young, she had been living her life out of fear. fear of what would happen if anyone found out what she did that dreadful autumn day. fear of herself and her barely controllable urges. even if y/n wouldn't show it, she was scared. even if she would run into battle like it was nothing, she would always have this nagging horror in the back of her mind. she has felt others blood in between her fingers. peoples screams of agony as she slowly watched the life drain from their eyes. perhaps she was chasing a high. a rush of adrenaline or dopamine. how she got pleasure out of others pain is unfathomable to a hero. their cliche heart of gold has a tendency to get under y/ns skin. we just have to hope she can make it long enough to serve as a functional league member. this intro is all over the place! like damn dude just get on with the fucking story already! anyway i'm basically saying that y/n has gotten herself stuck in a loop. she regrets her life choices, yes, but knows that if she were to confess, things would never be able to go back to how they were before. in her mind, she has no choice but to continue on the path ahead.
y/n pov
i was on my way to start my first day at ua when i saw someone else in a UA uniform walking slightly in front of me on the other side of the road. he seemed around my height (this dude is around my height, but if it's not for you just ignore that part) with blonde hair and pale skin. i sped up trying to remember what shigaraki told me, despite the fact that i was already obsessing over midoriya. 'don't interact. don't get attached. don't blow your cover. don't do anything su-'
"hey i'm kaminari couldn't help but notice your UA uniform. what class are you in?" he asked with a bright ass smile, though it was no izuku midoriya grin.
'act natural. be friendly, but not too friendly. leading him on is cruel. just- FUCK. I DONT KNOW! JUST DONT BLOW THIS!!!'
"hey! l/n y/n, hero course class 1-A. how about you?" i respond with a small smile.
"woah no way! i'm in 1-a too! wow. and to be in the same class and such a pretty girl..." he half assed his flirting. i just giggled and pretended to get all giddy over his flirtatious banter. this made his smile widen when i didn't instantly reject him. "how about you and me go out for bubble tea after? you know... to celebrate our first day at U.A?" i cocked an eyebrow at that.
"uhhh... yeah. sure, why not!" i replied hesitantly. he stopped in his tracks.
"wait... for real?" i just glanced at him a little weirded out.
"yes? are you ok, man? you asked me, why are you so surprised?" i swear you could hear a literal click in his brain when it set in that i said yes.
"no no no no no i'm not complaining!"
"never said you were."
"sorry, haha! it's just nobody has ever agreed before so it's a little new is all."
"ummm..." shit. i hope i didn't just agree to be his gf or some shit. "oh, ok haha?" this was the last thing i needed! god. "well i'll see you in class, kaminari!" i say as i wave and make my way to class.
//time skip//
i made my way into the classroom 5 mins late. it was empty. fuck.
"they're probably at orientation..." i mumbled to myself. "do i really wanna go tho?? i know skipping class isn't ideal for my first day..."
'especially if i wanna pass as a hero...' i thought the last part in my head.
"i'm sure there are some 'rebel' heroes out there so i guess it shouldn't matter. i turned to leave and quietly shut the door behind me. i wandered the halls for a few minutes until i ran into a teacher. shit.
"hey little listener! are you lost? who's class are you in?" present mic asked.
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WHAT IF HE RECOGNIZED ME HE WAS LOOKING AT ME WEIRD IN THE ENTRANCE EXAM OR MAYBE IT WAS IN MY HEAD FUCK WHAT DO U DO SHIT NUGGETS
"heeeeeyyy" i awkwardly start with finger guns. "i was just uhhhhhhh going to class which is where i'm going yup definitely bye!" dammit whyd i choose a ditzy persona! that was the best i could do? i won't last a week until my secret is out.
"woah there young listener! i've been working here long enough to know when someone is skipping class! who's your teacher? you'll be staying after school."
he said doing his weird pose thing.
"god, you fucking loud, you know that." my hands instantly flew over my mouth. good job me. first day at UA and you fucked up three times. joyous. present mic looked shocked and then low key angry but like he was trying to keep it in.
"that's an extra hour. who's. class." his arms were crossed.
i groaned. "aizawas." i respond blandly. how tf did my personality go from 0 to 100???
"okayyy not loving the attitude especially since i'm supervising detention today." he paused before taking a deepish breath. "look, listener. i get wanting to rebel. i was like that too when i was younger-" i cut him off.
"doubt we're coming from the same place here, buddy." i tried to walk past him but he held an arm out to stop me.
"then you can talk to someone! our school has wonderful councillors?" he said as more of a question. real convincing. i sighed. i had a plan, but i was feeling conflicted. do i wanna go through with this? i don't wanna seem weak but itl hopefully get me out of this situation. i force myself to start crying.
"i-i'm sorry." i fake stutter. "i know i shouldn't have skipped class i was just sick of being seen as weak and i didn't wanna have to go through with meeting other people and-" i wasn't sure where to go with that so i cut myself off with a sob.
present mic put i hand on my shoulder and tried to reassure me.
quick pov swap (present mic)
something about this sight felt familiar. a h/c e/c girl crying...
back to you! it wasn't that long i just wanted to let you know that was was picking up on a few things.
"here i'll show you where your class is. knowing aizawa he probably skipped orientation. wanna check the training grounds with me?" he offered. wow. he's acting totally different bc i was crying. shocking.
"y-yeah ok..." i fake squeaked out while wiping at my 'tears' so it looked like i hadn't been crying.
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•regret• izuku midoriya x reader
Fanfictiony/n never got a shot at a "normal" childhood. from the day she got her quirk, she would be outcast as a villain. she'd be safe as long as a secret could be kept. besides, if a villain is what they wanted, why not give the people a show?
